3 day weekend
It'll be nice to have a bit of extra time off, even if it's only just one day. I'm going to try to be productive and not just spend the entire time sleeping and playing video games. Hopefully I'm going to have at least one anxiety-free day where I can finish cleaning out my dresser (which I -need- to be in a good mood for because of reasons I'd rather not say) and I'd also like to start cleaning my closet out and getting rid of stuff and sorting out stuff to donate. It's time for me to really lighten my load and stop clinging onto things that don't do me any good by just sitting there. Especially once I have to move, it'll be much easier with less things to take over.
I don't really expect I'll ever move though. I fantasize sometimes about having my own place and what I want it to look like and what I would do, but then I get nights where my depression really gets me and I start to remember how I have no chance and no future and there is just really no hope and I'll probably be dead before I ever got out on my own.
Now there's a happy thought. (ノ_ ·.)
I don't really expect I'll ever move though. I fantasize sometimes about having my own place and what I want it to look like and what I would do, but then I get nights where my depression really gets me and I start to remember how I have no chance and no future and there is just really no hope and I'll probably be dead before I ever got out on my own.
Now there's a happy thought. (ノ_ ·.)
I'm back, hopefully!
I decided to get back into this blog, since Ameba has been getting more interesting I suppose. Well...the games have at least. I've just had this blog for years and I still play the games but ignore the blog and I felt like it could use an update, especially since my interests and general life have changed since the last time I posted (as you can see it's been a long time!)
I also figured this is probably the 'safest' place to blog where no one I know can find me without me linking them to it, because who in reality would think to look for my blog on a Japanese website? Even less so because people who do know me know that I'm interested in Korean music and have no idea I even know anything about Japan so if they were even going to hunt down other-language blogs I'm sure they'd go for Korean ones first. But even then it's like a .000001% chance that would ever happen.
Point being ameba is safe to blog on. Though my posts are mainly in English since the whole site is in Japanese it'll make things a bit easier on me. There's also less pressure to keep certain things to myself because the majority of the users on this site don't speak English.
I should have realized much sooner that this was the best possible place for me to be blogging. I'm kind of slow I guess.
(and I really love that face omfg)
OH and I can also post from my iPod so that means I can do picture posts too this will be fun. And double fun cause I can use Now to spam my random thoughts too since I deleted twitter.
I also figured this is probably the 'safest' place to blog where no one I know can find me without me linking them to it, because who in reality would think to look for my blog on a Japanese website? Even less so because people who do know me know that I'm interested in Korean music and have no idea I even know anything about Japan so if they were even going to hunt down other-language blogs I'm sure they'd go for Korean ones first. But even then it's like a .000001% chance that would ever happen.
Point being ameba is safe to blog on. Though my posts are mainly in English since the whole site is in Japanese it'll make things a bit easier on me. There's also less pressure to keep certain things to myself because the majority of the users on this site don't speak English.
I should have realized much sooner that this was the best possible place for me to be blogging. I'm kind of slow I guess.
(and I really love that face omfg)OH and I can also post from my iPod so that means I can do picture posts too this will be fun. And double fun cause I can use Now to spam my random thoughts too since I deleted twitter.
Quick update
So, obviously I haven't been posting here much at all. Lately I haven't even been playing on Pigg. I've only been playing on pigg life, which only just recently put the photo feature up so it's likely the only thing I'd be posting now was photos from that game. Though I kind of doubt that too...
Ameba just isn't as interesting as it used to be. It used to be fun waiting around to see bands on pigg, talking with friends, sending peta, etc. Now it's just flat, dull. Pigg life is the only interesting thing left. I've tried many times to get back into ameba but it just seems too difficult. The fun of getting and sending peta is gone. The fun of posting is gone. Everything is gone.
I was really enjoying ameba too. I learned a ton of Japanese just by hanging around and trying to interact with people, and this was the only site I really had the chance to practice using it. So now my understanding has gone down the drain. I don't know... I hardly even check artist's blogs anymore, even ones of people I love to bits.
Then again, I think everything in my life has lost it's fun, so I can't say that it's only ameba that's no good anymore.
Ameba just isn't as interesting as it used to be. It used to be fun waiting around to see bands on pigg, talking with friends, sending peta, etc. Now it's just flat, dull. Pigg life is the only interesting thing left. I've tried many times to get back into ameba but it just seems too difficult. The fun of getting and sending peta is gone. The fun of posting is gone. Everything is gone.
I was really enjoying ameba too. I learned a ton of Japanese just by hanging around and trying to interact with people, and this was the only site I really had the chance to practice using it. So now my understanding has gone down the drain. I don't know... I hardly even check artist's blogs anymore, even ones of people I love to bits.
Then again, I think everything in my life has lost it's fun, so I can't say that it's only ameba that's no good anymore.
