Long time!!

It's been a while huh?^ ^

I've been so busy with schoolwork and life.

There's so much to write about but I cant write a lot tonight hopefully after I'm

don't with this semester I can spend alot of time writing on ameba.

So I still have to deal with hardships of being single and having a crush on one of

your friends. yeah, I thought I stopped liking him but apparently every time i see

him I get feelings for him U_U The guy is far away now so hopefully my feelings for

him will go away. Why do I want to stop liking him? The guy may have the nice

looks and some nice manners but he parties and gets drunk---not my type of guy.

So I have to stop liking him, he's probably not the guy that God has for me, he

even dated my friend so I dont want to make things worst and have more drama.

(sigh)

Why Lord? Why?

Next time I'll a little more about him. In the meantime I'm trying hard not to

like him and I'm going to not talk too him for a while. I'll tell you why later.

See ya!! Oyasumi!! (^o^)y

GBU!!


-Kiddo =^w^=

P.S. I love this song ^ ^ Its the ending song to the 3rd Bleach movie ^ ^ love it!

Sigh

I've been feeling pretty down lately U_U I tried to really be positive but I cant!>_<

I started feeling like this since yesterday, dont really know why U_U

I'm just kinda sad and upset that one of my friends texted my other friend and never replied to my 2

texts and I called her and she never called me back U_U I think I know why and I understand. Every

time she does soemthing that she thinks its wrong she feels guilty telling me, like I'm her mom or

something and I wish she can just trust me and see me as a friend not as the mother hen. I know I

dont like it when she does things thats not good for her but I'm not going to scold her or tell her to stay

away from me! I just want to be treated as a friend and a sister. And yeah sometimes I worry about

my friends but I cant help but feel that way 0_0 and thats why I text her and called her when she never

texted me back, I thought something happened and I miss her U_U but whatever, I'm not going to call

or text her, I'm just going to leave it like that.

Also another thing-jealousy, yes I hate this feeling and I cant help but to just admit the truth but I think

I'm jealous that my friend finally found a guy, the one, while I'm just stuck here...doing nothing..being all

emo and stuff U_U (sigh) Sorry I just saw her status on facebook and it says shes in a relationship.

(sigh)

I'm just going to go to a corner and draw something, maybe If I eat something I'll feel better U_U

Another thing I gotta do is to stop depending on others, I gotta do things for myself and stop holding on

or making my friends say or do things I wanna do, for example I hate going to church by myself but this

sunday my friend is not going so I'm gonna have to go by myself and stop being a chicken! >_<

aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!! thats what I feel like doing! I wanna scream and cry! T_T but I

cant cuz I'm stuck at school U_U Ok I gotta go!

GBU!

-kiddo

party at jackie's!!

YO! waddup!! Its been a mad long time!^_^ lol

Well today I chilled at Jackie's adnd at first because of the weather I did not want to go anywhere and just

sleep, but I was like "It's jackie's bday and dont wanna hurt her feelings and I should stop being a lazy bum

and have some fun w/ friends" so I got there and we had chinese food which was delicious and we watched

Alice Nine^_^ yay!!! Shou n Tora are mad cute!!>_< I met 2 cute babies!! they're mad cute!! Makes me wanna

have some babies!! lol but anyways, I met Jackie's best friend and at first I thought she would be someone

that would be hard to like be friends w/ I was kinda scared lol ^_^ But she was funny and cool, she reminds

me of my friend Amber, she's overprotective w/ jackie which is cute and Amber does the same thing w/ me

which I think its nice^_^ so yeah I had fun, I still feel mad guilty about friday, I was being such a party

pooper U_U Sorry Jackie!!>_< lol I'll be my normal go lucky happy Karen!! or happy GPK!!! lol (^o^)y

Well gotta go! I still have no internet! T_T I miss it so much!!>_< Hopefully by monday I'll have it! I'm using

my sister's laptop ^////^ well gotta go!!

GBU!!!!

-Kiddo