I've been feeling pretty down lately U_U I tried to really be positive but I cant!>_<
I started feeling like this since yesterday, dont really know why U_U
I'm just kinda sad and upset that one of my friends texted my other friend and never replied to my 2
texts and I called her and she never called me back U_U I think I know why and I understand. Every
time she does soemthing that she thinks its wrong she feels guilty telling me, like I'm her mom or
something and I wish she can just trust me and see me as a friend not as the mother hen. I know I
dont like it when she does things thats not good for her but I'm not going to scold her or tell her to stay
away from me! I just want to be treated as a friend and a sister. And yeah sometimes I worry about
my friends but I cant help but feel that way 0_0 and thats why I text her and called her when she never
texted me back, I thought something happened and I miss her U_U but whatever, I'm not going to call
or text her, I'm just going to leave it like that.
Also another thing-jealousy, yes I hate this feeling and I cant help but to just admit the truth but I think
I'm jealous that my friend finally found a guy, the one, while I'm just stuck here...doing nothing..being all
emo and stuff U_U (sigh) Sorry I just saw her status on facebook and it says shes in a relationship.
(sigh)
I'm just going to go to a corner and draw something, maybe If I eat something I'll feel better U_U
Another thing I gotta do is to stop depending on others, I gotta do things for myself and stop holding on
or making my friends say or do things I wanna do, for example I hate going to church by myself but this
sunday my friend is not going so I'm gonna have to go by myself and stop being a chicken! >_<
aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!! thats what I feel like doing! I wanna scream and cry! T_T but I
cant cuz I'm stuck at school U_U Ok I gotta go!
GBU!
-kiddo