Tid Bits
Just things in mind...
Lately I've been taking care of my father, who's been sick with a bad flu, like he was hospitalized for it kind of thing, and I suppose it did make me sentimental...
He was a man that I never really looked up to. I knew the man who would use his children as pawns for his own gain. He is the kind that expected way too high out of his children. The man was an abusive kind both mentally and physically.
I had a messed up childhood growing up, but I did enjoy trips around the world though. The very least, I wasn't abused those times, and plus my Mamachan was always around to protect me. Speaking of, I was never told my Mamachan wasn't my biological mother, that she was my step mother, until I was around my early 20s. It just hurt a lot, too much to know that she wasn't my biological mother because she's the only mother and the best friend I have. However, I have learned to overcome that, since Mamachan raised me, she is my mother. My biological mother died when I was 6 years old, but the messed up thing about it, I vaguely remember her at all, because she was gone most of my life, and I was raised with my father, of whom I have to endure all his women in life.
Difficult, but I went on with life, despite being abused the most because when I was old enough, after Jr. High, I went off on my own and earned money with what jobs I can land, from modeling to what not, I did it all for my siblings and Mamachan. I was the bred winner and even if family hurt me, I stood strong. So, it may explain why I am very much a complicated person sometimes.
Anyway, I have kind of like three sides of my life, all pertaining career life, but I have personas that I keep up with, that keeps me busy. I give time for each side, which is easy because I have my own schedule to follow. Especially for my firm, I am the boss and I only attend if I am available, plus it's a life I am soon to quit, I just have family affairs to take care of and break from the firm. As for my music and entertainer side, always going to maintain that. I got that down. Interesting life? Maybe, but I make it work.
Well then ranty things about me over, love and hugs mwa!
Lately I've been taking care of my father, who's been sick with a bad flu, like he was hospitalized for it kind of thing, and I suppose it did make me sentimental...
He was a man that I never really looked up to. I knew the man who would use his children as pawns for his own gain. He is the kind that expected way too high out of his children. The man was an abusive kind both mentally and physically.
I had a messed up childhood growing up, but I did enjoy trips around the world though. The very least, I wasn't abused those times, and plus my Mamachan was always around to protect me. Speaking of, I was never told my Mamachan wasn't my biological mother, that she was my step mother, until I was around my early 20s. It just hurt a lot, too much to know that she wasn't my biological mother because she's the only mother and the best friend I have. However, I have learned to overcome that, since Mamachan raised me, she is my mother. My biological mother died when I was 6 years old, but the messed up thing about it, I vaguely remember her at all, because she was gone most of my life, and I was raised with my father, of whom I have to endure all his women in life.
Difficult, but I went on with life, despite being abused the most because when I was old enough, after Jr. High, I went off on my own and earned money with what jobs I can land, from modeling to what not, I did it all for my siblings and Mamachan. I was the bred winner and even if family hurt me, I stood strong. So, it may explain why I am very much a complicated person sometimes.
Anyway, I have kind of like three sides of my life, all pertaining career life, but I have personas that I keep up with, that keeps me busy. I give time for each side, which is easy because I have my own schedule to follow. Especially for my firm, I am the boss and I only attend if I am available, plus it's a life I am soon to quit, I just have family affairs to take care of and break from the firm. As for my music and entertainer side, always going to maintain that. I got that down. Interesting life? Maybe, but I make it work.
Well then ranty things about me over, love and hugs mwa!