"A lady's imagination is very rapid; it jumps from admiration to love, from love to matrimony in a moment." - Jane Austen
I treated him as my very best friend. Sometimes he is like my brother, sometimes he is like a stranger. It is very hard to tell ... what he is like (ﾉﾟοﾟ)ﾉ ...
The only thing that I know is ... he would not treat me as a best friend or a sis to him...
I am just a friend for him...
Half year ago, I can say I like him but I do not love him...
He knows how to let me calm down...
He knows how to let me laugh...
However, he does not know that he would let me want to be a little bit closer.... ummmmm maybe more than a friend.... more than a best friend.....
*BUT, the important point is he treats nice and gentle for every female girl.*
He can still keep contact with his ex-girlfriend.
He can still hang out with his ex-girlfriend alone.
I didn't know that I would miss him when he went back to Hong Kong in last Nov.
I didn't know that I would look forward to seeing him so damn much before I know that he needs to back to Brisbane for sup.
I didn't know that I would not let him go back to Hong Kong again.
DAMN!!!
Maybe the reason that I feel like this just because he is the closest male friend at this moment.
I felt that I love him before... but he had a girlfriend...
However, I didn't feel hurt...
Now, I just feel I'm so weird.
Maybe because I have a feeling that want to be more than a friend with him...
I do not want to tell this feeling to anybody....
I just want to keep this secret in the deepest of my mind.
It is because this situation might be the furthest and closest that I deserve( p_q)
I just feel so complicated...
Well.... he knows that he is one of the most important person to me as I would share my secret with him...
BUT... he does not know that I would have this feeling on him...
He is a person that loves freedom....
Also, I am not a gorgeous and smart girl...
He must not think about me to be one of his choices of girlfriend...
ANYWAY, I will meet another option of Mr. Darcy in my life....
So.... what I have to do is keeping the secret in my mind and wait for .... my Mr. Right... (ﾉ_-｡)