Day 4 (conti.): June 5th (Sunday evening) ~ Island Magic ~
In my chalet, my body was craving intimacy. It’s probably the busy Sydney hustle and bustle that made me forget that people need each other. It made me think of my life a little bit. Haven’t explored or given some self-love time for my body recently. I’ve been ignoring my physical needs. Although I technically was dating my ex until quite recently, we lacked in our intimate time, simply because I didn’t want it with him. Oh, he was just a selfish lover. The very last time we were having the moment, early January, my tears shed without my control. People may think Japanese people are conservative, but I personally believe that chemistry with your partner is so important. Yes, I want to stimulate my female senses and keep glowing! Release some oxytocin or the love hormone, and continue to be beautiful and shine
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Whilst hearing my soul asking for physical satisfaction, I naturally thought of Eto. Wouldn’t deny it, definitely was feeling quite horny! It was so weird. This emotion was dead for a good couple of years. Honestly, my sexual life was not the greatest even being in a relationship. One of the reasons why I chose to discontinue with my previous bf. Well? There was no guarantee of this Sabahan man to satisfy me, just that my body was wanting him quite badly
No particular reason, my gut was saying it. I respect my gut feelings, they are always right! Okay, the next step was to message him to see what time would suit this meet up.
I went to look for Eto. Would he be at the Jetty still working? No, he was not there. Leo, the other DM, was there instead. He knew I was looking for Eto and mentioned that he may be at the gym working out. That explains how nice his body is. After a small talk, I tried maintaining my coolness. It was worth the walk here though, the sunset was amazing with the combination of hot pink and the red haze clouds. Post-mesmerising of picturesque sunset sky, I was very casually walking to the dining area hoping that someone would be there. Dinner time was not late in my opinion. About 6:45pm or so? Sze Wei was already gone. No, didn’t get to chance to talk to her. And guess what? There was no wifi connection in the dining room! How on earth was I going to message this guy? Was hoping that by the time I finish dinner, that the internet would be back. It was not as simple as that. Even had my phone restarted to make sure that it wasn’t the connection with my iPhone. No change. Dude, I was actually losing my patience. The reception guy was walking around the dining room to check people who were going to Sipadan island. Yes? That’s me. But where. Is. The. Internet. ??
Desperate girls aren’t very attractive. What was I supposed to do then? Suppress my naturally occurring hormones? Nope. My solution was to ask for a hotspot from the Borneo divers crew working on reception. Thank you for your understanding, it’s bad that people nowadays can’t live without internet. I would like to believe that this was appropriate for me - I’m only staying on this island for 2 more nights. Let’s get this right! Shortly enough, the meeting happened. “Badass Diver” on his shirt appeared. About time! This definitely made me feel better, because that justified my sense of desperation
We had beer for the night. It isn’t usually my cup of tea but, holidays always give an exception. Tiger beer. He prepared the bottles for us. That’s nice of him! We had one for each other. What were we even talking about? Random things. Then there came another bottle. He brought up a topic about how the Japanese listed Sabah as a “red zone”. In the past, there were several kidnapping incidents of the Japanese tourists by the Filipinos. Ever since there hasn’t been many of them but at rare occasions, supposedly come by on their own risk. And another bottle opens…. Talking about how the Borneo Divers are now run by the Chinese. Currently the 3rd manager but has greatly improved in many ways including staff OH&S and benefits. I’m pleased to know that the Chinese were able to look after the crew during the difficult times of the pandemic. He did mention another thing though how strict they are in terms of customer satisfaction/management. There has been cases where long term staffs were left redundant due to mischief/ an affair with a customer. 100% this will cause unnecessary trouble. No matter how long they have been working there for, the staffs are terminated to protect their reputation. Hearing this story, I shriveled into a prawn. Oh, there is no chance anything is happening tonight
. Even after our 4th beer, going strong in drinking and of course, no action. We needed to wake up early for next day for the Sipadan dive trip. It was already past 11pm. Lights in the kitchen and dining areas were switched off. People have left to sleep and rest. We were still “chatting”. Okay, I had to take my last resort -- to massage. Body touch lol how obvious do I have to make an okay sign? Or, he wasn’t even interested because I’m his customer? Soon after he asked me about my status if I’m married. Is my marital status what you want to know? Or if I want to mingle? Man, I am single. Why do you think I’m out this late to have alcohol with you, and even offer you a massage? Whilst secretly chuckling in my head, he finally came in for a kiss. …
Boy oh boy, just before 12am aye? In before the magic spell of the Cinderella disappears. Well I’m sure he wasn’t waiting intentionally. He was just very shy 
and again, this is with 4 cans of beer. I don’t mind the man being a little reserved like this though, it felt like a tease. Better than werewolves who don’t have self control. His hands were quite surprisingly sweaty. Was this because of the alcohol? Or me??? Or neither, since the mosquitoes won’t stop biting me, our body temperature must’ve been quite high with the alcohol and general island heat.
Everything was great from him picking me up like a man, as if I was just a piece of cake, having my legs wrapped around his body, to making out with his juicy lips. Did I tell you that I have a thing with thick lips? It makes me melt when they cover mine. It’s presence and warmth is unexplainably pleasant! I’m not sure if I can write down the details of the night any further than this? Keep it PG rated? What made the bed action brilliant was that he was making sure that I was enjoying it. He may have not been as vocal as I would like to be, probably because it is different when it comes to speaking your mother tongue and foreign language - totally understand. His body language was saying it all
Kissing me everywhere and holding my hands tight. It may sound obvious to all gentlemen out there who does make sure the ladies are fully wet downstairs with the foreplay, but trust me, many men ain’t patient enough. Thank you Eto-san for making me feel loved. The fact he stayed with me until the morning was a nice touch.
We barely had any sleep. We both knew that we had early morning the next day for Sipadan island dive. We survived on 3-4hours sleep. Little concerning? Please don’t copy what we did! What made me think was, was I going to have enough energy to dive on empty stomach with alcohol in my system? I guess #yolo right?