破曉

大家都睡了

一沉澱下來 又不小心想起 那件矛盾的事情

為什麼我就不能不碰電腦直接睡覺

這樣或許到明天醒來以前 都不會想到那件事

但是淺意識深處 思緒不想和那件事中段太久

是好奇心太旺盛還是慾望太強烈?

所以睡前不得不用電腦重新連接

今天國中同學七人來我家吃泡菜火鍋

從七八點開始切切弄弄

浩浩蕩蕩吃到快兩點

兩點後又玩鬧到快四點

然後大家全住我家

今天在傍晚大家到達前

也很專心一直在整頓屋子 以及採買食材

一整天下來 根本沒時間想到那件矛盾的事

和認識十幾年 默契及好感情又深厚的老同學見面

總是可以讓我忘卻一切

今天當然是過的大開心 也笑到快要死

但是在這歡樂一日結束的睡前

我在部落格上寫的 不是今天開心party的細節

而是再次認知這件矛盾的事 不會這麼輕易的就被忘掉

沒辦法說釋懷就釋懷

沒辦法說放手就放手

還是覺得給我機會我能做得很好 也覺得不是我比較好

矛盾 =''=

Joyce 你要怎麼辦?

Thoughts, feelings, notes, etc.

Haven't been back here for a week.

Oh how I miss you, blog!

It's weird to have an online blog again.

Having a place in the open global internet web,

where I can put down my random thoughts, momentary feelings, notes, past memories, moods, etc, and even vent a little.

It's like an online diary.

I wonder how long I can keep this up.

I am more used to notebook journals.

That's where I think I can really say what I truly think and feel, secrets, without worrying anyone would see them.

So I guess I have some sharing issues.

I don't share much personal details, of course unless it's someone I know really well and trust.

That's why I like it here.

Almost none of the people I know use this webstie so it's secret enough.

So far I only know one person that might read this and she's harmless.

yay yay yay yay yay

Take it slow.