party

5 july
the date of my party
well, i'm anxious, can't even understand what makes me feel so.
the music is ready, the team is ready, even the outfit is ready, and the ppl are waiting for, but .. but there's something that neverless bothers me >.<
hell, it won't be my first time on stage and i know what and when and how and everything)
and in a day after i'll have a couple of days for myself, for the rest and shopping and sleeping, cause wow i'm going to Helsinki , i miss the city soo much, last time i was there about two months ago

dunno, just to survive one day, just one. it'll be tough and there'll be hot.
but.. i chose that life myself, ne?)

outside...

wow, it's such a thunderstorm outside now! fantastic..

i spent the last two days at my friend's place
there was some kinda party for her closes ppl, her 25th b-day.
that was extremely cool
heh, all that smilie stuff about just illustrates how bad i'm sometimes in finding the right words *laugh*
but the party was really fun. there were just girls, so we spent time just like girls should, ate/drank smth tasty and were chatting about nothing in general, and laughing all time. ok, prolly that' s a good stuff for school-gals, but who cares? *laugh*

oh, i also started watching "Gal Circle"
the girls look nice, but the whole plot... it reminds me of anime festivals, where everybody on stage talking 'bout light and kindness and that stuff, and nobody seems to believe that, cause... hell... life is life.. it consists of this positive issue and that negative issue and that that can be count as both
and, not that i'm for or against.
i just prefer to be prepaired, ne?

so, talking about the dorama in hand.
i'd really love just to watch and not to listen to the dialogs and to read subtitles, huh.

need somebody

need somebody to listen to me...
i'm so much shocked every time smb of my friend is gonna get married.
dunno, we're al so young and.. well maybe that's just i'm the one who cares more about different projects, and career, and organizing partys and festivals, also about travels and so on and so on

maybe i just still didn't meet that person who can make me start thinking 'bout family...
talking about that gir, who informed me about her marriage today.
she' s my best friend, and i kinda expected such news, cause she lived with her bf for well.. half of a year is not that long period, but i know her enough and i could tell, that soon they will.
but they marry cause she's pregnant. oh my.
i'd like to comment on that, but can't find suitable words.
so she's so busy with different kinda analyses and that stuff that can't find even a lil bit of time to pay attention to her own marriage
and actually, there's no time...

a marriage (ok, i mean that "true" marriage with limo car and all of the relatives invited, and a dress, a party etc... boring yeah, but seems like no one can do without all that stuff) takes about a half of year to organize, that's what i know for sure.. yep, as an organizer.
look like her parents and i will have to organize that event.
i just hope she won't change much after marriage and baby's birth,
she's one of that several ppl who know me almost for the whole life.
i really want my friend to be happy, but at the same time don't wanna lose anyone of them
is that jealousy? ok, nobody told that new family means losing old contcts and links
but the possibility is high
and
i'm afraid of it..
that's stupid, i know
but still
as well as afraid of one more proof that time is running fast

ok, no more sad talks, k...