suicidal

I try to attempt suicide everytime I feel like nobody wants me in this world. I know! I need psychiatrist. but I still have stable mind. it's just that when I am in real heartache I want to feel the real pain. I saw real blood whenever I cut of my wrist slowly with a cutter. I know you where thinking why I do this things?!... my life isn't wasted dear! don't even laugh or smile on this!

it was just a blood that lined out by a cutter which doesn't hurt anyway just as I say it's just a blood and a skin. by the way I used this

my husband's cutter from work which he doesn't use anymore. anyway like I've said I am not calling the attention of people here. This blog is for my own personal thing online Diary. Want to write this and remember how difficult life is, but still fighting. I hate my husband! we had a fight & we don't understand each other anymore and he doesn't listen to me. It's really hard to have a husband which is Japanese Nationality. it's really different but I need to cope up with these things right? I know I am not perfect nor a perfect daughter or wife or a mother to my children. I just hate being take for granted by my husband who is really a hard working man. btw he is 14 years older than me almost 15years. I'm turning 32 and he is 46 so what's the difference? age gap... yeah.. ya... I know he is older and that should be put on his mind. Be marry younger woman which is me & I wanted to be separated with him even though we had a daughter 4yrs. old now. I'll be needin a lot of help.
Please pray for me and my soul that I shouldn't die today. forgive me Lord for I have many Sins. Blessed my body & my soul.
Amen.

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ひどい戦い (Terrible Fight)

昨夜、私の夫とのひどい戦いを持っていました。
had a terrible fight with my hubby lastnight.
まさしく簡単な会話から立腹まで、その時、次に、分離(私)が欲しくしながら、戦ってください(厳密に言えば、squirlingします)。
from just a simple conversation to angryness then fight (squirling to be exact) then wanting a separation(me).

「私のムードを扱うことができないなら、私の上と下の当時のあなたは私の愛に全く値しません」
"if you cannot handle my mood my ups and downs then you don't deserve my love at all"


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愛人

今、私は、他のブロガーがなぜ彼らの夫を信じないかを知っています!

彼女は私の夫陰茎を食べました!
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