俺の愛している女の子

Fuck it im using English.

shes the only girl i have deeply fallen in love with. Shes a beautiful girl, strong in heart, and very mature. Little did i know that true love seemed possible with her. Until something happend. Something so stupid and dumb. Its my fault. and i feel so fucked up not because i ruined the relationship, but because i might of influenced her in such a negative way. It made me worry sometime. Not only that, I swear to god a cupid just struck my heart while i was with her. I was supposed to be the one.. to keep her safe and protect her from all those muthufuckers who try and hit on her and shit. I wouldnt of let any guy lay a finger on her. Maybe im being overprotective but oh well thats how i feel. i cheated on her and this is my honest reason. I loved Eri. Literally, it was the first time i have felt such a feeling. it was like drugs. it feels good, and pleasant and about10billion other good feelings together. By the way i dont do drugs. lol.

Anyways what i want to say is that i want to be the one to prove that guys arent like this.

That theres a lot of muthurfuckers but there are also nice guys too. because if i sprayed shit on her face and leave, how is she ever going to trust guys. She and i, we can break up or she can hate me for my actions. for whatever. But i just dont want her to end up like she cant trust guys.

Although i would be so jealous once i see or hear her being with a guy. I deserve it. but man ill never want to see this girl if shes with another guy. i dont want to see her being in love with another guy. i cant see it. my bloodll probably rush to my head too much and ill die. you know what i learned? love is fucking dangerous. it can be evil like how i love her but i dont even know if she does and i dont even know whats happening. yeah thats evil and thats hell. Now heaven, maaaan..haha heaven is more than heaven. Golden kick ass heaven!! feeding each other love , is the golden kickass heaven. haha. i miss her like im crazy. maybe i am. maybe im going crazy. But if she doesnt want to be with me. ill step back and ill let her go. if thats what she wants. wait no. fuck it im taking her back.