thinking is fine

I'm beginning to see how much I've changed this year... （ ・(ェ)・）

1) I'm not so depressed any more, and I don't want so much attention and special treatment. It's okay to be a bit silent and outside of everything. I mean, I still take part in many amazing things and am being active, but there's more time to myself in my timetable. Although I can't use it very well... (￣∇￣+)

2) I think I've grown mentally. I mean, that... well. Hard to explain. Somehow I can take things more slowly now and don't get panic right away when I hear something new. I'm not so much scared of new situations either.

3) I'm interested in people. It's like doing an analysis all the time. I mention the way they walk and talk and just are. It's interesting, you can really get to know surprisingly many things just by looking (・ω・)/

4) I have no clear idea of my future career. Everything seems to be possible.

5) I've become more independent.

Stuff like that I don't know if it's good or not, but I'm trying to improve in everything. I think it's great that I'm having so much fun at school. We do crazy things, have days till 7pm and sleep during the lessons. But it's just fun and everyone thinks it's okay.

- ilona -

big decisions

Hello! （‐＾▽＾‐）

I'm enjoying my winter holiday. The weather is really nice, it's sunny but still a bit cold. And at 10 o'clock I'm going to Tampere with my dear friend Karin we go shopping, eating and doing crazy things. Can't wait!

Next monday, when the school begins again, starts the joint application. I'm a bit excited, because no one else is trying to get into the same upper secondary school with me. But our counsellor is nice, so I trust that he will watch a bit after me. I talked with him for an hour on Wednesday, and got to say many things, that have shadowed my mind. Actually I feel really light now.

Last week at school was nearly good, nearly horrible. Well, Monday and Thursday were horrible, but the other days were fun. I laughed too much :*:・(￣∀￣)・:*:

- ilona -