Couldn't keep track of myself

Nowadays.. I couldn't plan or prepare things ahead at all. I lost one jacket and one sweater somewhere on or near campus. I lost one jacket first, so I should have been able to do something to prevent the same thing from happening. But I couldn't. It was like I didn't want to take any action for it. Also, I can't believe I almost failed the application for the major I wanted to major in. I didn't prepare for the applicatin until one day before the deadline, and I found that I was not able to get one of the document I need by the deadline. The counselor was not strict about the deadline (I would have completely missed it if here were Japan) so I got a permission to hand it in next week. Again, it was like I asked for it because I didn't want to do anything since last week, as I wrote a few days ago.

I thought my current situation was not like me first. But actually, if I recall the past, I several times almost failed important deadlines. The reason why I didn't fail was I asked urgent helps to other people even though they were busy. I depended on the other people too much and I still do, so I repeat the same things even now.

I've gotta change!!! konomama ja yabai!! I will try to look back on what I did often and regularly have time to think about the close future and prepare for it. ｷﾀｰ Y⌒Y⌒Y⌒Y⌒Y⌒Y⌒(｡Ａ｡)!!!