kangae goto

I had about two and half hours since i got back to my dorm till now, but I couldn't study at all. My mental state has been a little strange during the time period; I couldn't move away from my computer at all. I think every time I become like this, I should think why, so I was thinking..

I think I'm now insecure by thinking I might lose what I really don't want to lose. It's an ambiguous, unreasonable worry, I know, but I sometimes can't help thinking like this. That's why I'm scared of gaining too important and precious things.

But also, I think that kind of thinking is coming from my passive attitude. If I don't want to lose it, I should be creative and try my best in order not to lose it. I keep forgetting this; after I try my best to achieve something, then whatever will be will be!

hu-, my feeling became a little lighter now.