Okay I really gotta type this all out before I explode.
I usually don't like complaining, especially about work. How often do you ever ever ever see me complain about work? But this one thing really REALLY did pissed me off, I know I have to express my feelings, if I don't I would really break down. So this is what happened.
On work days that doesn't involve with teaching in a classroom, it is called an Office Day. It is when either you go into the office and do random paper work, or being sent to some other teacher's classroom and do a Team-Teach. It was around 3 weeks ago. I usually go into the office at around 1pm for office days. The office is in Chiba, which is a few station next to Funabashi (where I live) by rapid trains, it takes around 15 mins. And that is actually the closest to me comparing to ALL my regular schools. So not only it saves up heaps of time in my life, but also heaps of money in my pocket. I actually do like office days because of these reasons.
Anyways. So one Office Day morning, at around 9am (of course I was still sleeping,) I got a call from Schedule Control (its the place where you usually call in for sickness or when you suddenly can't make it to your class...etc) and they were telling me that Jeff was sick so I have to go cover all his classes that day, just so suddenly. But, its okay its okay, I wasn't mad at all, things like this happen. So I was like "Okay! No problems! Where is the location?" And it ended up to be in Sawara. More than an HOUR by train (imagining that back and forth; not only time but money.) BUT. It is alright, I was totally fine, believe it or not. Jeff is a really nice guy, He's cool, I don't mind covering his classes.
Next morning, apparently it was also an office day again. And, I GOT A CALL IN THE MORNING AT 9AM BY SCHEDULE CONTROL AGAIN. So she was like "Thanks for covering yesterday," I was like "Oh...no problems!" and then she continued, "Unfortunately............" She didn't even finish her sentence and I was already like thinking omfg, NOT AGAIN...TWICE IN A ROW???????? "Jerico is sick today so you would have to cover his classes today at Oyumino........" Being a professional worker in the society, I know I cannot say 'no', not because I'm not allowed to, but because in order to stay in the society, you will have to say 'yes.' BUT THAT'S NOT ALL. She continued "And apparently...it is his Parent Observation today..."I'm sorry for all these terms. But Parent Observation, is a day when ALL the parents that day, will come into the classroom and watch your lesson, it happens only every half a year, so it's an important event. They come here and see how the Native English teacher is teaching their kids regularly. So, okay, IT'S SUCH A FREAKIN' IMPORTANT DAY, and he took a day off because he is 'sick.' I know I can't speak for the others, but I know when I WAS SICK, I would BARE it, I would STILL go to work, MONEY IS THAT IMPORTANT. Not only that, but RESPONSIBILITY. And we're talking about Parent Observation here. They want to see the REGULAR teacher that teaches their kid, not some random teacher that suddenly come in for that one day. I mean, WHAT IS THE POINT? Parent Observation is meaningless already if it isn't the usual teacher here. fuxx. I don't wanna swear, Let me try keeping this clean again. But please feel my anger.
I've said it already but yes, I could not say no. So I mailed Jerico after I hung up with Schedule Control. I deleted that mail already so I don't remember all the words I wrote to him. But it sounds like something like this.
Good morning, how are you feeling? I got a call from Schedule Control just now saying you were sick? Are you okay? You probably thought your classes would be cancel today, but apparently they weren't, I'm gonna cover your classes. Don't take it the wrong way, I totally don't mind convering your classes, I've already covered Jeff's classes yesterday and Sawara anyways. But then its your Parent Observation today, don't you think you should be at least a little responsible and try to show up? The parents were looking forward to it, it happens only ever half a year, and some even might have to take a day off work just to come watch. They might be upset about it. But yeah its just my own opinion, hope you get well soon! :)
It sounds like that. Even with a happy face I remember! Later on, he replied to my e-mail and told me he is real sick so blahblablah I don't remember what he said, he tried to be calm but I could feel the heat through his words already. Then a few days later it was his birthday, I even sent him a mail saying Happy Birthday and get well soon! He replied and said thanks as well. So I was like, okay so he sounds cool, I guess he's totally okay already. (But honestly dude, who SHOULD be the one to be mad here? He called in sick, and I WAS THE ONE who covered his classes suddenly. There is no reason for him to be mad at ME. Unless he was mad because I'm being honest with how I feel toward his actions.)
SO. TODAY. I had an Office Day at the office. And our personal supervisor (he is all the native teachers' supervisor) talked to me. He was like "Jerico sent me the mail you sent him a while back then, and I guess he is a little upset about what you said about how he should go to his classes, so I think you should apologize to him next time you see him." I was like "Oh I really didn't know he would take it that way...I'll apologize next time I see him" I really meant what I said, but I also had other things that I was thinking in my head that moment :
WTF? TATTLE TAIL?? HOW OLD IS HE?? SERIOUSLY...WTF??
But in real life, there are things where you have to just take it all in, and suck up with it. Honestly, I was really mad. Burning mad, and frustrated and everything. The whole day today I was just being really down and quiet. I was keep on thinking on the down side, I kept on thinking "dude maybe this job doesn't suit me, I can't get along well with these people, fuxx man, shix. I shall just go back to Canada and be my baby girl curled up with my family and doesn't have to worry about anything..." But no, I know I'm only 20, I'm still young, I still have my rights to be naive. But no, things in life happen. Problems are everywhere, if I escape from it now, it will come out again later, so might as well face it now. YES ICY, SUCK IT IN! Don't burst out, try to be the mature one! You're not in high school anymore! You're working in the society! You have to learn the way to survive in a society! Life is not fair. The society is not fair! But we'll still have to live with it!!!!! I learned my lesson. Next time even when I have anything that I'm not happy with, I shall stay low and pretend it was nothing. Yes, smile, icy, smile! Fake it! Damnit! :) There, you pass.
Sigh.
I'm so tired.
I just wanna drown in music, and sleep till forever.