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姫
SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
yesterday after dance practice I went to nomikai (drinking event?)
omg so many things happened I don't know how to put them in order.
there were 2 other people that came (they're also dancers I think) as well
so like at first there were 6 people there (because ogata and tomo weren't here yet)
so there were 2 tables,
4 of them were sitting in one, and 2 in the other,
when I arrived there I went to the washroom right
and when I got back, it was like....4 people in one table,
and the one whos is at the other table,
was,
YOU-KNOW-WHO 
!!!!!!!!
I was like OMGOMGOMG in my heart but of COURSE I'm pretending to be calm. lol
so OHMYGOD it was like me and you-know-who ALONE in one table.
like OMGOMGOMG right? ヽ((◎д◎ ))ゝ
so remember how there were these 2 people that I don't know were there?!
so this guy was talking to you-know-who at first,
then he looked at me (cuz he doesn't know me)
and he pointed at me asked him "your girlfriend?"
......................................................CAN YOU IMAGINE MY EMOTION AT THAT TIME??
CAN YOU??????????????????????? LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL
LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL
(highlight of the night HAHA)
okay, I was actually pretending to be calm at that time. LOL
I was like waving my hand left and right telling him "no I'm not"
but you-know-who was also so calm LOL
I thought he would be having a HUGE reaction to it like "OMG NOOOOO!!" or smth...lol
ANYWAYSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
so thanks to me and you-know-who's special alone time in one table moment
we've talked :))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
yeups we've taked :)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
just by talking I'm already so happy :))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
but you know, he is seriously 'mailing' alot on his phone ALL THE TIME.............
I mean dude, what time was it 
it was like midnight/morning, and he was constantly mailing I-don't-know-who.
you know how a girl's instinct is always correct.
my instinct tells me that
he has someone in mind...............................................
so I asked ogata and he said
he does.
and I was like SOOOOOOO DOWN...........(ﾉ_-｡)
then I asked him "if its you.......would you give up....."
then hes like *silence* ".......yeah"
do you know how much that hurt? *grabs heart*
but later on I asked tomo about it (hes closer to you-know-who afterall)
and he said he had never heard about him saying he has anyone in mind,
and he tells me that he doesn't think he has anyone in mind either...
then I was like "but ogata said he does"
and hes like "then who do you believe?"
DUDE MAN. I DON'T KNOW!!!!!!!!!!!! I'M CONFUSED LIKE HELL MYSELF!!!!!!
but isn't it better to believe that he DOES than he doesn't!?
I mean.................I don't wanna give myself too much hope in him you know............
I just...don't have the confidence in myself anymore....................
I don't care if he really does have someone in mind now (okay fine I'm lying, I DO care........)
but I don't think I'll give up my feelings for him just because of that..........
it makes me happy enough....just to be beside him........
I'm happy enough, just to see his silly face....
I'm happy enough, just to be able to talk to him occasionally......
ARGH 
sigh why am I liking him too much?