This entry is specially written only in English just for you guys!
SO THIS IS WHAT HAPPENED.
Yesterday, I went to you-know-who's school festival.
I went to 3 school festivals in japan (one in kiyohiro's school WASEDA, and the other was naochan's JOUJI) so far,
and this was by far the smallest and the least fun things around,
yet, I had the greatest and bestest time. (///∇//)
I was there to watch a few of my b-boys dance performance,
and of course you-know-who's dance club's members as well.
To be honest with you,
I was DEAD jealous of the girls who were in his dance club...
Seriously (;__;)
there was this girl who had a solo part dancing just alone with him.
and it looked SO freakin' nice too.
it was like a hiphop duel thing.
and most of the girls in his club were so cute and pretty too.
and the way they can just normally call him by -insert you-know-who's name here- senpai
dude, it stabbed my heart real hard.
like okay fine I know I'm not the ONLY girl he knows in his world,
but this is the first time I've REALLY felt like,
yeah, I'm REALLY not the only girl in his world lol......
there are tons more, and they are way hotter cuter prettier than me lol
and last of all, they're japanese.
(I just have a feeling that he likes japanese girls only, really, I can't stop beliving that)
after his school festival ended,
we went for dinner and nomikai again (drinking parties)
I've made friends with the guys and some of the girls from his dancing club.
A lot of them really wanna learn english and all,
so they've made friends with me.
They're really nice people and such,
but I still can't stress enough how much the-supposedly-extraordinary-shy-you-know-who
can be like touchy (not like perverted touchy, but like putting his hands/arms around a girl's shoulder, or like touching her hand and stuffs)
like those things, HE HAD NEVER IN HIS LIFE DONE TO ME AT ALL.
but maybe hes just drunk, who knows.
and I was looking at it right in front of my eyes too :(
its just...so...sad.
one REALLY crazy thing that happened was...
(I don't know if they're just really drunk and stuffs okay but...)
this guy was asking me in ENGLISH during the dinner/drinking thing,
and he was sitting right beside you-know-who,
he asked me "DO YOU LIKE HIM??? DO YOU LIKE HIM??" *grabs you-know-him*
I was like.so.shocked.........................like STUNNED ∑(ﾟДﾟ)
I REALLY didn't know how to answer lmao seriously...
so I pretended I didn't understand what he said LOL I was like "huh?? huh?? what??"
hes like "DO YOU LIKE HIM??? DO YOU LIKE HIM??" *grabs you-know-him harder*
and you-know-who answered "YES!!!"
like.omg.
like.OHMYGOD.
what just happened!?
does it mean, he knows?
or he might be just randomly answering in his drunkness?
or does he even know what "do you like him?" means? LOL
so many questions flowing in my head at that time,
but I figured it would be best to say "I LIKE EVERYONE ﾍ(ﾟ∀ﾟ*)ﾉ" in the most innocent way, so they would trust me, and so I could hide my little secret......................
then, after dinner,
we went to another place for drinking,
and there was this time when you-know-who was busying mailing on his phone...
and I pretended I didn't care anyways, as usual...
and apparently the seat beside him was available,
and koba-san was like "why don't you go and sit there and accompany him?"
I answered really normally "hes busy right now"
then koba-san asked him like right away "hey -insert his name here, are you busy right now?"
and you know what you-know-who answered? "yes I'm busy, I'm replying an important mail right now"
YOU KNOW HOW MUCH THAT ANSWER HURTS??|
DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH?????? o(；△；)o
I WISH I WAS DRUNK SO I DIDN'T HEAR THAT.
like,
shit...
SHIT...
SHITTTTTTTTTT.
was the only thing in my mind.
I bet he has someone in mind...
so I asked po later on to make sure...
and he told me no he doesn't have anyone in mind.
THEN WHAT? I DON'T GET IT.
I'M SO DARN CONFUSED AND MY CONFIDENCE IS LIKE DRAINING OUT.
ARGH.
and because I had work today (and honestly I can't stand seeing you-know-who and his ignorant actions that upset me and of course he doesn't know about it either)
I decided to leave early.
and before I was leaving the table,
all the people were talking to me like "aww nice meeting you today" "good to see you" "get home safe" like all at once,
and apparently I blanked out all the messages when you-know-who shouted "ARIGATOU!"
then I turned my head around and my eyes were only at you-know-who
"for what?" I asked
and you-know-who answered "for coming"
that was like the only highlight yesterday lol
okay I know I know its nothing big and it was nothing sweet,
but the fact that he would say arigatou suddenly was just sooo not like him.
he doesn't seem like the type that would say a thank you suddently...
so...I was happy :(
BUT STILL.
I AM SO GLAD I WENT YESTERDAY.
just seeing his face makes me happy.
I don't care if its the smiling face he has when he talks to the other girls,
or the face that he looks at his cellphone when he was busying repling his 'important mail'
but,
I'm still so glad I could see him.
love, icy.