Almost 1 year passed since I came to CA. I changed a lot. I believe I made some progress.
About English.. I couldn't response any comments except "Thank you so much" as soon as I came here. However, I feel comfortable to live here because I can express what I want to say in English now.
California.. It was just in my dream. I mean, naturally,I didn't know it really before I live. But I'm living in CA that is one of my favorite places. I feel CA every day even though I still don't know many about it.
It was much harder to stay here than I expected. Especially a second half of the year... yes...bad experiences... I lost my confidence every time. Only one thing I could do was that I overcame these one by one. I always say to myself "go go !! you can do it ! you should try it." Then I almost always fail. But It's ok. I don't care after that. Just let it goooooo. One important thing is to challenge many things in order to achieve the goal instead of avoiding difficulty. People never develop without hardship. I should keep moving forward.
I think this is my style. I don't want to regret subsequently. I don't think back to the past negatively because I always do my best. By doing so, when I think back to the mistakes, I can laugh it but I don't feel sad. I know I don't look smart whenever I make a mess. Of course I feel embarrassed every the time. But I don't care!!! I don't care if someone laugh at me. It's just a short moment. I never die. I need to go my way.
So I can say I feel satisfied about the first year.
I'm leaving the school that I've been for a year tomorrow. I guess it would be the last day of attending the class. I'm not leaving CA though. I will go to my next stage here.
I watched the movie; Beauty and the briefcase. It reminded me the time when I was working.
Then... I thought "Omg! I want to work with these men in suits!" Because.. I don't really see them in CA. I mean in Orange County. Maybe because I don't have opportunities to go to places like a office. Yes, I go to school every day.. That's why I've never seen a fashionable bunch of men in suits. Where is them?? Do they exist here? Tell meeeeee anyone pleeeease! oops,maybe I'm tired of watching students. Sorry, I know I'm student,too. I can watch men in suits as much as I want in Tokyo. But I didn't like Tokyo because of too many people.
Also I feel like I want to dress up sometimes even though I totally don't need to do that. I did't bring any suits, dresses and pumps from Japan because I prefer relaxing casual style. I really didn't like to wear shirts and suits.
Don't cry for the moon !
You like CA, comfy clothes, and young students!! maybe..
I was so impressed because she gave me warm hospitality. we are volunteering together as a Japanese teacher assistant. I'd like to follow her....attentiveness. I want to absorb any good aspects Im admired. I thought sometimes I need to make food except Japanese food... Japanese food is the best though...I will try another kind. Furthermore, as I mentioned, she is so sensitive. really. then, her husband is perfect as well. That's why... I see... I have to try hard!!
