I want to cry to see my previous article... it was just after London. I want to come back at this moment...
I don't know what to say except that it was the most perfect day of my life.
I loved the live in London, even if they were a little bit shy. I feared the behaviours of the French fans and i didn't want to see some people so I thought that he would be... less nice in Paris than in London. But I was totally wrong. It was awesome, they were all perfect.
I knew their face in real so I wasn't as much chocked as the first time but my heart was full of happiness to see them once again. When they arrived for the individual picture, it was like I never left them whereas we've waiting so long since London.
I was so excited to give them their new presents. Anna and I decided on friday night to begin dolls in order to give them. It was very hard but very fun, because we had to do it quickly. We stayed awake until 4am and we woke up at 10am to finish it. At the end, I was very proud of our result. Now, I wish that they liked it. I know thanks to Anna that Kazuki liked his but I don't know for Byo. I was so much focused on something else at this moment. I wanted him to see my little paper where I wrote "Please, Kiss Kazuki during the live" in Japanese but I think he didn't understand it even if he answered "OK". Bad guy, I was waiting for a kiss with Kazuki but he kissed Rui. Never mind, I'll always have the image of him kissing someone and it is freaking HOT. And i don't care because I had a hug. I don't like to brag about things like that BUT here I want to. I HAD A HUG AND HE SMELLS SO GOOD. And I'll never forget it. Kazuki laughed when I gave him a montage of Byo and him with France's flag behind them. And I'll never forget it too.
Plus, I heard Byo's voice. I didn't in London and it was very frustrated. I would be very disappointed if I didn't hear him in Paris too. Now, I can say that he has the most perfect voice of the world. He improved himself since the beginning of SCREW. Today, if you say that he doesn't sing well, YOU-ARE-MAD. I was singing with him on the crowd, even if I didn't know well the all lyrics.
At the end of the live, during Nanairo, I was very sad because I knew that it ended. I tried to stay strong but I sheded some tears because it hurted a lot to realize that it was the last time I saw them. I miss them so much, I never missed someone as much before. As Anna, I became more conscious of my relation with them. They are a huge part of my life.
I'm deeply jealous of the people who were able to see them several times. I regret not to do one date in Germany because they sold merchandises there, just after Paris. When I see some people loving many and manyyyy bands and they are like "OMG, KAZUKI IS SO HOT ! I DIDN'T LOVE HIM BUT NOW I FELT IN LOVE WITH HIM BECAUSE I HAD A KISSSSS!" or "BYO LOOKED AT ME TWICE, WE WERE SO CLOSE." but SHUT UP. I'm selfish okay but i don't like that kind of girl. They are almost just in love with their physic, not with their music and I can't bear it. I want to kill that kind of girl, reeaaaaallly. More, I want to kill that spanish bitch. Anna knows why.
So... I feel so lonely today. I miss SCREW but I also miss Anna because I had to leave her on monday. I didn't want to but I can't live with her yet. I don't want to depress alone, I'm so bored in Normandy... I don't have anything to do and I don't have the desire to do something special now... I want to loaf with Anna. I want to watch to Pokemon with her, to speak with her until 3am. I want to go out with her, here I don't want to be everytime with my sisters... The fact of leaving SCREW and her is widely hurting. I'm empty and only them are capable of fulling me. I love all of you.
It seems like I wrote a lot. I didn't expect it but i wanted to take it out somewhere.
Anyway, nobody will read it.
Byo signed on his lips... HE HAD LIPSTICK >_< so sexy.