Who thought it'd be a good idea to restart dieting in the middle of absolute god awful schoolwork and depression?
What's worse than needing to get a smoke in the morning followed right after by lorazepam immediately. Why is there a need to contemplate last night's decision of sending mnz a whole chunk of text that boils down to the "I'm glad to know you're alive everytime I see your bike in school." sentiment of mine? I dont know. Maybe I'm just slightly slow to realise I have stalkerish tendencies
Perhaps there is some form of emotional repression, or simply I am just whimsical at all the wrong times.
Today marks the first day of my diet where I can only survive on some veggies and a kanzenmeshi instant rice??? instant rice??? twas tasty very much, very very. I look forward to ending the school day and shivering in pain as I run back home for my rice. That means I have around 500 calories a day. Absolute hell, but there seems no better way to control my binges.
We see how this goes.