reaching out is like trying to grab a quick candy bar fix when you're dieting. sure the urge is there but really? you're gonna act on it just like that? not wait? you know the sunk costs and the opportunity costs don't you? you risk fucking up everything.
so don't act on it. period. actually, question mark.
don't act on it?
maybe it isn't hot enough for you to feel your internal pain gnawing at your heart, the awareness of the pain more forboding than the pain itself. just maybe. why do you have to act? why can't you wait?
so don't act on it, you risk losing all control, and maybe the whole of yourself in the process.
buy some dimmoire clothes instead.