i would like to thank you cause because of you i lived the 2 best weeks of my life youre an extraordinary person. im crying when i write this email cause icome back .
i met lots of people in my life. last year i had a very difficult life cause i had an illness and now i feel ok .im gonna think about all those moments when we were chatting about our cultures and everything.i will never forget you. now you really have a place in my heart. i tried since few years to protect myself from people thats why im shy ive lost my father and since that moment i try to stay away from people to stay away from what i can feel to people. im sorry to tell you all of those things, maybe you don,t care.
you really made me feel like i was able to be someome different, to believe that one day the sun can rise for me again. now im leaving thirsday and i think i have your image in my head for a long time .people around you are lucky to know you and to just be able to talk to you everyday.i feel like even if im going back home in two days i have to tell that i have feelings for you, and i think these feelings are not just frienship but something stronger. in our life we have to be prepared for lots of situations but i was not prepared for that one, each day we met during my trip in japan i became closer and closer to you and i didnt realize it. now we meet tomorrow and i know it will be hard to tell you goodbye. ive became cold since few years i thought i was a robot but you made me feel i can be sensible and that my heart still works cause i feel something for you now .
im crying and i think its a good thing cause crying make me feel im alive after this difficult year . i dont need you to answer this email i just wanted to tell you all of those things cause it was hard for me to keep them inside . youre a wonderfull person youre nice and sweet with people , thats maybe why i falled in love of the person you are . i just wanted you to now all those things cause i cant keep them inside of me thats all. i respect you andthanks for everything . i will never forget you. i repeat i only wanted to tell you these things cause even if you dont care i could not be able to come back home without telling you that. now i did it and i feel better.
......というメールが火曜日に送られて着まして、私はもうこのメール読んでいたら涙がでました。。。
このメールが届くまでは、彼のような気の合う人はなかなかいないので、一生の友達、もしくは親友になれる♪と思っていたんだけど、このメールが届いて呼んでいたら涙が出ました。なぜなら私も彼に対して友達以上の何か別の感情を持っていたことにこのメールを読んで初めて気づいたから。
これがしばらく忘れていた本気で誰かを好きになる感情なのではないかと。。
青文字で書いたところを読んでいたらすごく切なくなってしまいました。あなたはロボットじゃないのに。。。
ピンクで書いたところを、出発２日前に読んだ私はもうどうしていいのかわかりませんでした。
彼と過ごしている時間の方が、otaと過ごしている時間よりも本当に沢山わらえたし楽しかったから、きっとotaのことは本気じゃないと思ったのです。
つづく。。
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１０月１８日にダーリンが日本に戻ってきます
出会う→お友達になる→デート→告白→付き合う→キス→SEX
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笑）を貫くと決めた私
ということになりました
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に対して、「私も今あなたと同じ気持ち」だという事を伝えて、MSNで明日で最後なのは悲しいけどとびっきり楽しもうね
は彼の返事を待たずに、気付いて頃には日比谷線のホームに向かっていたのです。
「（一人でやってるって…あんた(笑)）」