外国人のお友達の話。。これにて完結かと思っていたけど、
なんとなんと、、今朝メールが届いてました。
hi ,im writing you a mail because i feel really sad. i told you i wanted to go to japan in 10 months to study or to work there but i want to finish my life there and there is a line between what i want and what i can do . i realize that without degree (diplom) im not gonna be able to do that before the next 3 or 4 years. it makes me really sad the only way to stay in japan is to have a degree ( 4 years degree minimum) or to be married with someone in japan, so i think im never gonna be able to do that before a long long long time . i thought it was more easy but i underestimated the situation.im gonna try to find options to know if there is just one chance for me to go there forever but im not optimistic. tomorrow im calling the japanese ambassy in france to ask for these questions. if i finally hear that there is no option for me im not even sure that i could see you again cause if i dont come to japan without being sure to find a solution to stay there i can't come, so tomorrow if i hear that its better for me not to go to japan after they study my studies and what i can do i m gonna have to accept the fact that i have to stay in europe, but if this happen and if i have to accept the fact that i m not gonna see you again for the moment , i can't keep my mouth close. when i met you in japan i had the two best weeks of my life and i loved you the first time i saw you. and i think ill have your image in my head forever cause i never falled in love as i did in japan. my heart never felt something so strong. with you i was so happy i was like the happiest person in the world. maybe you think im crazy to say all those things but i have nothing to lose. if i cant come to japan because of the visas and stuff i want you to know that. youre so sweet nice to me. i just cant stop thinking about you. youre with me all the time. youre in my heart and i think if i come in japan or not, youll stay in my heart forever. i realize that i want to live in japan but i cant live without you too. maybe you think i say all those things suddendly but with all those things that happen to me i needed to tell you that. the last night was the best night of my life. and noone in my life ever gave me that feeling.i have nothing to loose except the love of my life. now you can think im crazy or something like that, its your right.but if i hear bad news tomorrow i wanted you to know that i love you and even if im not able to live in japan ill travel the whole world just to see your smile again. ill give anything just to see you laughing and putting things on my face. whatever whats happen i love you and ill always love you. im not 15 years old boy discovering love. im trying to stay serious and not over estimate what i feel but my heart talk for me. youre really a wonderfull person , so this message is kinda desesperating message but anyway i thought i should keep that love in my head. but i needed to tell you all of those things. have a nice night
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やっぱり私、彼の事本気で好き
あきらめなきゃって思ってました。でもこんな事を言われたらあきらめきれないよ。
やっぱり彼が好き！！！！彼が東京を去ってからというもの毎日彼の写真を見て一緒に過ごした日々が頭から離れなかったし、私、本気で好き！！
本気で好きな人がいるのに、本気じゃない人と付き合うなんておかしい。
というわけで、otaとも、私にアプローチしてきてくれている優しいエリートアメリカンとも、きっぱり普通のお友達として付き合っていこうと思います。
この友達、２４歳。しかしながらまだ大学の３年なんです。留年なんて彼の国ではあたりまえ！
日本に２週間すごしただけで、「日本に一生住みたい！」と考えたEuropeanのFrenchです。
どんなニュースが待っているのでしょうか。
でも、日本でくらしているFrenchで大学でていないfrench沢山いると思うけど、きっと彼のやりたい事は大学出てないのと難しいんだろうな。
このメールになんて返事したらいいんだろう。。
「大学でてなくても、東京で生活しているFrench沢山と思うよ！だから来て！」なんてそんな傲慢なこといえないし。
やっぱりあなたが好きです。