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Occasionally, I will have this kind of emotion.



I hate him. I hate him. I hate him. I hate him. I hate him. I hate him. I hate him. I hate him. I hate him. I hate him. I hate him. I hate him. I hate him. I hate him. I hate him. I hate him. I hate him. I hate him. I hate him. I hate him. I hate him. I hate him. I hate him. I hate him. I hate him. I hate him. I hate him. I hate him. I hate him. I hate him. I hate him. I hate him. I hate him. I hate him. I hate him. I hate him. I hate him. I hate him. I hate him. I hate him. I hate him.

yes, I hate him.



If it is not him, then I won't be in the state that I am in right now.
If it is not him, then I wouldn't have gone to Sweden for the festival, I would have taken my conversion exam, I would have done by PCLL, and now I would already be a solicitor trainee.
If it is not him, then I haven't have cried so much, I would be so much more concentrated on my study, I would have been so much more successful.
If it is not him, then I don't have to plan my work schedule around the tour schedule because I want to see him so badly, I worry so much that he will forget me.
If it is not him...
There are just so much "if it is not him".


I know it is all my own decision. Yes, I know that damn well, and I know there is no one I should blame. I know I will probably make the same decision if I can choose again.

But, just occasionally I will hate him for getting me into all this.




I hate him, only because I love him so much.

G x