Author - David Swift | Reading Time - 05 Min | Date - 08/02/2023
As we all know, a major component of OCD is having extreme and persistent doubt.It can make you question even the most fundamental aspects of yourself, including your sexual orientation.In a 1998 study that appeared in the Journal of Sex Research,171 college students reported having 84% of sexual intrusive thoughts (Byers, et al. 1998).
A sufferer need not ever have had a homo- or heterosexual experience, or any form of sexual experience at all, in order to have concerns about their sexual identity and also they are concerned about gay test quiz online.
I have also seen this symptom in adults, teenagers, and young toddlers. It's interesting to note that Swedo, et al., 1989 discovered that 4% of kids with OCD have obsessions about forbidden aggressive or perverted sexual ideas.
Although doubts about one's own sexual identity might seem pretty straightforward as a symptom, there are actually a number of variations.
If the sufferer is heterosexual
Then the thought may be that they are homosexual.
Going a step beyond this, some sufferers have obsessions that tell them that they may have acted, or will act, on their thoughts. A variation on sexual identity would be where the obsessive thought has fastened onto the idea that the person simply will never be able to figure out what their sexual orientation actually is.
Patients will sometimes relate their belief that “I could deal with whatever my sexuality turns out to be, but my mind just won't let me settle on anything.”
Some people's doubts are further complicated by having such experiences as hearing other people talking or looking in their direction and thinking that these people must be analyzing their behavior or appearance and talking about them – discussing how they must be gay (or straight).
For those with thoughts of being homosexual, part of the distress must surely be social in origin Let's face it, gay people have always been an oppressed minority within our culture, and to suddenly think of being in this position, and to be stigmatized in this way, can be frightening.
People don't generally obsess about things they find positive or pleasurable. I have sometimes wondered if those who experience the most distress from such thoughts as these do so because they were raised with more strongly homophobic or anti-gay attitudes to begin with, or if it is simply because one's sexuality can be such a basic doubt.
I suppose this remains a question for research to answer. The older psychoanalytic therapies often make people with this problem feel much worse by saying that the thoughts represent true inner desires
. day.These can include: Looking at attractive men or women,
pictures of them, or reading sexually oriented literature or pornography (hetero- or homosexual), to see if They are sexually exciting
.
Masturbating or having sex repeatedly just for the purpose of checking their own reaction to it.
Observing themselves for evidence of “looking,” talking, walking, dressing, or gesturing like someone who is either gay or straight.
Compulsively reviewing and analyzing past interactions with other men or women to see if they have acted like a gay or straight person.
Checking the reactions or conversations of others to determine whether or not they might have noticed them acting inappropriately, or if these people were giving the sufferer strange looks. Reading articles on the internet about how an individual can tell if they are gay or straight to see which group they might be most similar to.
who obsess about not knowing what their identity is:
How do I know whether I prefer women or men? Maybe I really don't know what I am. Maybe I'll never know what I am. How does anyone tell what sex they really are? How will I ever be able to tell What will happen if I make the wrong choice and get trapped in a lifestyle that really isn't for me?
Reading stories by people who “came-out” to see if they can find any resemblance to their own experiences.
Repeatedly questioning others, or seeking reassurance about their sexuality.
Compulsive questioning can frequently take place, and usually involves others who may be close to the sufferer. The questions are never-ending and repetitive. Some of the more typical questions sufferers are likely to ask can include those in the following two groupings: For those
For those who obsess that they are of the opposite sexual orientation:
Do you think I could be gay (or straight)? How can I tell if I'm really gay (or straight)? At what point in their lives do people know what their orientation is?
Can you suddenly turn into a homosexual (or heterosexual) even if you have never felt or acted that that way? Did I just act sexually toward you? Do I look (or act) gay (or straight) to you? material of an opposite orientation does it mean I am gay (or straight)?
A typical example would be a heterosexual man who experiences an erection while looking at gay erotica.
t is important to note that it is extremely common for people to resort to all sorts of fantasy material concerning unusual or forbidden sexual behaviors that they would never actually engage in, but that they do find stimulating. Under the right circumstances, many things can cause sexual arousal in a person.
The fact of the matter is that people react sexually to sexual things. I am not just talking about people with OCD here, but about people in general. I cannot count the number of times that patients have related to me that they have experienced sexual feelings and feelings of stimulation when encountering things they felt were taboo or forbidden.
This of course then leads them to think that their thoughts must reflect a true inner desire and are a sign that they really are of a different sexual orientation.
This reaction is strengthened by the incorrect belief that homosexual cues never stimulate heterosexuals. One further complicating factor in all this is that some obsessive thinkers mistake feelings of anxiety for feelings of sexual arousal.
Things become even more complicated by a number of cognitive (thinking) errors seen in OCD.
It is these errors which lead OC sufferers to react anxiously to their thoughts and then to have to perform compulsions to relieve that anxiety. have their origin in the normal unwanted, intrusive thoughts seen in the general population.
What separate these everyday intrusions from obsessions seen in OCD are the meanings, or appraisals, that the OCD sufferers attach to the thoughts. of the thoughts, as well as their attempts to relieve their anxiety via compulsions and avoidance.
Some typical cognitive errors made by OC sufferers include:
I must always have certainty and control in life (intolerance of uncertainty). I must be in control of all my thoughts and emotions at all times. If I lose control of my thoughts, I must do something to regain that control.
It is abnormal to have intrusive thoughts, and if I do have them it means I'm crazy, weird, etc. Having an intrusive thought and doing what it suggests are the same morally.
Thinking about doing harm, and not preventing it, is just as bad as committing harm (also known as Thought-Action Fusion). Having intrusive thoughts means I am likely to act on them. I cannot take the
risk that my thoughts will come true. can be rather negative drawing a lot of angry responses or ridicule after the thousandth time. One young man I know questioned his girlfriend so often that she eventually broke up with him and this added to his worries since he now wondered if she did so because he wasn't a "real man."
The compulsive activities sufferers perform in response to their ideas, of course, do nothing to settle the issue. Often the more checking and questioning that is done, the more doubtful the sufferer becomes.
Even if they feel better for a few minutes as a result of a compulsion, the doubt quickly returns. I like to tell my patients that it is as if that information-gathering portion of their brain is coated with Teflon©
. way in which sufferers cope with the fears caused by the obsessions is through avoidance, and by this I mean directly avoiding everyday situations that get the thoughts going
.Avoiding standing close to, touching or brushing against members of the same sex (or opposite sex if the sufferer is gay). Not reading or looking at videos news reports books or articles having anything to do with gay people or other sexual subjects. the words “gay,” “homosexual,” (or “straight”) or any other related term.
Trying to not look or act effeminately (if a man), or in a masculine way (if a woman), (or vice versa if the sufferer is gay). , or masculine (if a woman), (again vice versa if the sufferer is gay).
Not talking about sexual identity issues or subjects with others. Avoiding associating with anyone who may be gay or who seems to lean in that direction (if the
Needless to say, it is crucial for all OCD sufferers to understand that there is no avoiding what they fear. Facing what you fear is a way of getting closer to the truth. The purpose of compulsions is of course to undo , cancel out, or neutralize the anxiety caused by obsessions.
They may actually work in the short run, but their benefits are only temporary.OC sufferers cannot process the information they provide and it just doesn't stick.It is sort of like having only half of the Velcro.
Also it is important to understand that compulsions are paradoxical – that is they bring about the opposite of what they are intended to
accomplish . to the problem of having obsessions, but soon become the problem itself.”
What compulsions do accomplish is to cause the sufferer to become behaviorally addicted to performing them. Even the little bit of relief they get is enough to get this dependency going. Compulsions only lead to more compulsions and avoidance only leads to more avoidance. only natural for people to do. It is instinctive to try to escape or avoid that which makes you anxious. Unfortunately, this is of no help in OCD.
Another problem that arises from performing compulsions is that those who keep checking their own reactions to members of the opposite or same sex will inevitably create a paradox for themselves. excited, and then think that this must mean they have the wrong preference.
which leads to further stress and of course more doubts about themselves. The flip side of this is when they look at things having to do with sex of an opposite orientation and then feel aroused in some way,
Which they then conclude to mean that they liked it, which means that they are gay (or straight). This is the mistake I referred to when I stated that people react sexually to sexual things. People
like to ask if there are any new developments in OCD treatments. medications since the last article, treatment remains essentially the same. The formula of cognitive/behavioral therapy plus medication (in many cases), is still the way to go. and Response Prevention (ERP).
ERP encourages participants to expose themselves to their obsessions (or to situations that will bring on the obsessions), while they prevent themselves from using compulsions to get rid of the resulting anxiety. of several weeks to several months. This results in an effect upon the individual that we call “habituation.”
That is when you remain in the presence of what you fear over long periods of time, you will soon see that no harm of any kind results.
As you do so in slowly increasing amounts you develop a tolerance to the presence of the fear, and its effect is greatly diminished. By continually avoiding feared situations, and never really encountering them, you keep yourself sensitized. the avoidance itself is the “real” threat that keeps you trapped.
The result is that as you slowly build up your tolerance for whatever is fear provoking; it begins to take larger and larger doses of frightening thoughts or situations to bring on the same amount of anxiety.
When you have finally managed to tolerate the most difficult parts of your OCD they can no longer cause you to react with fear. Basically, you can tell yourself , “Okay so I can think about this, but I don't have to do anything about it.” By agreeing to face some short- term anxiety, you can thus achieve long-term relief.
It is important to note that the goal of ERP is not the elimination of obsessive thoughts but to learn to tolerate and accept all thoughts with little or no distress.
This reduced distress may in turn, as a byproduct, reduce the frequency of the obsessions. Complete elimination of intrusive thoughts may not be a realistic goal given the commonality of intrusive thoughts in humans in general.Using
this technique you work with a therapist to expose yourself to gradually increasing levels of anxiety-provoking situations and thoughts.
You learn to tolerate the fearful situations without resorting to questioning checking or avoiding. By allowing the anxiety to subside on its own, you slowly build up your tolerance to it, and it begins to take more and more to make you anxious.
Eventually as you work your way up the list to facing your worst fears there will be little about the subject that can set you off. You may still get the thoughts here and there, but you will no longer feel that you must react to them and you will be able to let them pass.
There are many techniques for confronting sexual and other obsessions that we have developed over the years
Listening to 2-3 minute audio tapes or tape loops about the feared subject.
Leaving cell phone voice-mail messages for yourself about the feared subject. Writing 2-page compositions about a particular obsession (and then taping them in your own voice). Writing feared sentences repetitively.
Hanging signs in your room or house with feared statements. Wearing T-shirts with feared slogans. Visiting locations that will stimulate thoughts. Being around people who will stimulate thoughts.
Agreeing with all feared thoughts and telling yourself they are true and represent your real desires Reading books on the subject of your thoughts. Visiting websites that relate to your thoughts.
These are some typical exposure therapy homework assignments I have assigned to people over the years:
Reading books by or about gay persons. Watching videos on gay themes or about gay characters. Visiting gay meetings shops, browsing in gay bookstores, or visiting areas of town that are more predominantly gay. Wearing a T-shirt at home with the word ' gay' on it. Wearing clothes in fit, color, or style that could possibly look effeminate for a man or masculine for a woman.
Looking at pictures of good-looking people of your own sex and rating them on attractiveness. Reading magazines, such as Playboy, if you are a woman, or Playgirl, if you are a man.
Standing close to members of your own sex. a series of writing assignments of a couple of pages each that suggest more and more that you are actually gay or wish to be. Making a series of three-minute tapes that based on the writings gradually suggest more and more that you are gay, and listening to them several times a day changing them when they no longer bother you)
Not checking your reactions to attractive members of your own sex. Not imagining yourself in sexual situations with same-sex individuals to check on your own reactions. where you were with members of the same or opposite sex, or where things were ambiguous to see if you did anything questionable.
Avoid observing yourself to see if you behaved in a way you imagine a homosexual or member of the opposite sex wouldexposure homework for those with doubts about their own sexual identity might include:of people who are transgendered or are transvestites. Telling yourself and listening to tapes telling you that you will never really know what you are.
To go along with the above would be:
Not checking your reactions when viewing members of either sex. Not acting sexually to simply test your reactions. Avoiding reviewing thoughts or situations you have uncertainty about.
Many of the above therapy tasks can sound scary and intimidating. an easy task.We rarely use the word 'easy' at our clinic.It takes persistence and determination but it can be done.
People do it all the time especially My own advice to those of you reading This would be to get yourself out of the compulsion trap and get yourself into treatment with qualified people.