I'm so damn happy <3

to the max!!!



photos taken candidly by Igor




I cant stop smiling




I dont need more, really..

I dont expect too high..


even I though he wouldn't talk to me...

but I prayed


and so he did




thank you Father for your help, now I'm so damn much happy!!



and an unexpected thing..


he said he felt like knowing me


MWAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA -being crazy-

of course you do, dumb








I got more than what I expected to get.. and that's, blazing




ureshi katta neeeeeeeeeee



this is the feeling which I haven't felt for long long time I suppose haha...
I'm so lucky to can feel alive again


and tanya said, I was different from me months ago..
she said, I was alive.. felt like knowing something to do for live



I hope she's right

this feeling

is killing me



slowly

and painfully


but surely








I cant stand with it...







Ive tried to stay away from your life


but you come to me again, accidentally I know

and I dont hope this... I wont admit it..




I know for you perhaps my existance isnt important in your life

I know I'm just a-not-so-important-girl in your life comparing with other pretty and rich girls

I know perhaps you dont even know I'm alive





I know that




but its been 2 years

you destroyed my life..

you messed it up

you always came unexpectedly

unbeatable..





I know I have to get away from you



everyone has said it...









the last chance will be given by Father in heaven for me I know


we will meet once later



I will just show myself up in front of you once
and yeah, we will be talking I know..


and if you dont feel anything


I surrender...










dear Father,
if he's really the one for me
please let me meet him once again before I go to taiwan..
and please if he really is
lemme having him, before I turn 17
I want to change him,
to know you
and follow your rules.
I really do..
please bring me to discover they answer
about all these weirds cases
which has been happening to my life
involving himself
I need this answer
I know youre God
so nothing is impossible for you
if he really isnt the one for me
do not ever appear him again in my life..
because I know its impossible to not meet anyone anymore..
at least, dont let him appear in my life THIS YEAR ONLY
lemme having good time before forget him

I love you Father..