my hair

has been dyed out again




what colour?


It was supposed to be light brown, gyaru style.. with some white highlight...


but it turned out like this









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no comment

henry

is a friend of mine...


is my friend's cousin



has been leaving jakarta for long time



and he has a relationship with someone that Im used to having a crush with
like a friendship..







told me seriously

he was a playboy

really the master of playboy


and asked me to think about it carefully




a lot of my close friends did it..
not only my parents but also my friends in internet





I hate this










I dont hate everybody
I dont hate him either

I just hate myself

who never can take chance, or fight for love, or too coward











henry said..
he didn't suggest me to chase that guy

cause his feeling said no.. he wasn't right for me







I know..


its probably right

but myself cant observe this case clearly








sorry for being so silly lately for reading my pointless blog

I do really mean it

my mom said..

that I always fell in love with someone who look a like my daddy...





let me list what my mom told about my typical of boys which my dad has..


I like skinny boys mostly, cause for me sixpack body is scary. and my dad is so skinny

I like punk / rocker style boys mostly, cause I used to be visual kei.. and my dad did it also when he was young. he did pierces, he wore black and leather thingy, he was styled as a rocker

I like gay type physically.. for me, gay has some pheromone which normal guys dont have.. and my dad is always being thought as a gay. even my mom thought he was also at first

and now.. I like someone who works like what my father used to be..

yeah, a dancer

seriously confusing




lemme tell you the history lol~
my dad had been a chef, a dj, and a dancer..
seriously talented haha




now Im chasing someone like him..

my mom cant stop talking like this nowadays XDDD;;







I think...




later I can fall in love with a chef? LOL