since days ago, I was having light flu...
and last night, I couldnt sleep but just cough all night. sleep 5 minutes, cough 10 minutes. it's irritating
then about 11p.m. I was awaken by my coughs. my lung was hurt so badly and I cant breath (￣Д￣；；
I ran to my mother's room and told her, she gave me medicine and rubbed my body with a traditional oil [minyak gosok from ujung pandang] to warm my body. I got warm? no..
I got HOT!!!!
after midnight, I had slept already.. with wrapping all of my body with blanket
but when I was awaken by my mom to go to school at morning.. I was having headache so I decided to not go to school ｷﾀ━━━(ﾟ∀ﾟ)━━━!!!
but, the worst part was started...
I slept again and I got the worst nightmare I've ever had [I had this dream before but different person so I decided this topic of dream is the worst ever!]
so the dream was about..
I was having a date with my boyfriend(?) well in fact I dont have it, in rl or even in internet.. he was driving to his home and asked me to join him. I was about join before he said this to me,, "use your lipstick hun, then we can have s*x. and if you dont, I'm gonna kill you"
OMG??? WTF???!#$%$&#$%
who wants to wear lipstick? who wants to do S*X with him?? and who wants to die?
immediately, I ran away from him but he's trying to chase me.. I screamed like crazy people but no one help... and then, I saw my dad smoking in the corner of one mall and I yelled to him, "dad!! please save me!!! this guy is crazy!!!!" I screamed so loudly till I cried and then without thinking anything he ran to help me.. he hit the guy and smacked him to the limit.. I stared them speechlessly.
then my dad told me he was my brother's private teacher's brother... (kinda confusing eh?) and I shocked. I screamed and cursed him.. I told him how came he could do this to me instead his sister was borrowing money to my family for his school tuition(IDK why I said this o_o; but the fact my brothers teacher lent money is a fact)
dad wrapped his arm around me and told him to not bother me anymore or he would kill him painfully. I came home with my dad together holding hands. and I was happy..
but suddenly mom called me and asked me to go to a hospital. I asked why and she answered dad's there. I said no way.. he's there with me. but when I looked at the place where he had been there before, I couldnt find him..
I drove to the hospital(? I cant drive in fact) and then I went to 5th floor, bringing flowers for my dad. but then, a lot of my family members there and made a circle. I asked my cousin whats happened and she answered my dad had passed away
I felt my world getting darker and I ran to my notebook, I typed my ameblo and cursed everybody... I said that (sorry, I dont mean it) God doesnt exist because he made my dad left me behind.. because he didnt let me having more time to be with my Dad, and asked him about if he was exist then change my place to my Dad..
I remembered I said something like that but dont know what exactly is. well, I dont know. I never say something like that in real world, and I wonder, would it be true if my dad's passed away? would I curse God? geez ._____________________________.
but let we end the story.. I came to my dad and hugged him, crying so loud. and my dad totally looked like my grandfather who had passed away. so skinny, and bald..
but he rejected me and got me away from him by all of his own strength while muttering, "hurttt... hurttt". he's still alive at least
and I dont remember whether he said it or not about he didnt want to be with me.. I was there, in the floor, crying about all of my faults to him. about what I've done to him and what I havent done when he was alive. I kneeled down and said sorry to him, but he shook his head and only said "hurt hurt" ;___;
I cried louder and louder till I felt my lung was almost break
but then, my dad sticked his tongue to me and said, "april mop my dear"
HOLY JESUS!!!!!! IT'S AN APRIL MOP'S JOKE??? ;A;
I was released so I cried even louder, about happiness that he's still alive and can be with me a little more longer....
and I was awaken again, still crying...
calling my mom but my voice couldnt escape... dad came home and hugged me but he was left 5 mins ago for business...
I'm still speechless and full of ingus ;______;
and last night, I couldnt sleep but just cough all night. sleep 5 minutes, cough 10 minutes. it's irritating
then about 11p.m. I was awaken by my coughs. my lung was hurt so badly and I cant breath (￣Д￣；；
I ran to my mother's room and told her, she gave me medicine and rubbed my body with a traditional oil [minyak gosok from ujung pandang] to warm my body. I got warm? no..
I got HOT!!!!
after midnight, I had slept already.. with wrapping all of my body with blanket
but when I was awaken by my mom to go to school at morning.. I was having headache so I decided to not go to school ｷﾀ━━━(ﾟ∀ﾟ)━━━!!!
but, the worst part was started...
I slept again and I got the worst nightmare I've ever had [I had this dream before but different person so I decided this topic of dream is the worst ever!]
so the dream was about..
I was having a date with my boyfriend(?) well in fact I dont have it, in rl or even in internet.. he was driving to his home and asked me to join him. I was about join before he said this to me,, "use your lipstick hun, then we can have s*x. and if you dont, I'm gonna kill you"
OMG??? WTF???!#$%$&#$%
who wants to wear lipstick? who wants to do S*X with him?? and who wants to die?
immediately, I ran away from him but he's trying to chase me.. I screamed like crazy people but no one help... and then, I saw my dad smoking in the corner of one mall and I yelled to him, "dad!! please save me!!! this guy is crazy!!!!" I screamed so loudly till I cried and then without thinking anything he ran to help me.. he hit the guy and smacked him to the limit.. I stared them speechlessly.
then my dad told me he was my brother's private teacher's brother... (kinda confusing eh?) and I shocked. I screamed and cursed him.. I told him how came he could do this to me instead his sister was borrowing money to my family for his school tuition(IDK why I said this o_o; but the fact my brothers teacher lent money is a fact)
dad wrapped his arm around me and told him to not bother me anymore or he would kill him painfully. I came home with my dad together holding hands. and I was happy..
but suddenly mom called me and asked me to go to a hospital. I asked why and she answered dad's there. I said no way.. he's there with me. but when I looked at the place where he had been there before, I couldnt find him..
I drove to the hospital(? I cant drive in fact) and then I went to 5th floor, bringing flowers for my dad. but then, a lot of my family members there and made a circle. I asked my cousin whats happened and she answered my dad had passed away
I felt my world getting darker and I ran to my notebook, I typed my ameblo and cursed everybody... I said that (sorry, I dont mean it) God doesnt exist because he made my dad left me behind.. because he didnt let me having more time to be with my Dad, and asked him about if he was exist then change my place to my Dad..
I remembered I said something like that but dont know what exactly is. well, I dont know. I never say something like that in real world, and I wonder, would it be true if my dad's passed away? would I curse God? geez ._____________________________.
but let we end the story.. I came to my dad and hugged him, crying so loud. and my dad totally looked like my grandfather who had passed away. so skinny, and bald..
but he rejected me and got me away from him by all of his own strength while muttering, "hurttt... hurttt". he's still alive at least
and I dont remember whether he said it or not about he didnt want to be with me.. I was there, in the floor, crying about all of my faults to him. about what I've done to him and what I havent done when he was alive. I kneeled down and said sorry to him, but he shook his head and only said "hurt hurt" ;___;
I cried louder and louder till I felt my lung was almost break
but then, my dad sticked his tongue to me and said, "april mop my dear"
HOLY JESUS!!!!!! IT'S AN APRIL MOP'S JOKE??? ;A;
I was released so I cried even louder, about happiness that he's still alive and can be with me a little more longer....
and I was awaken again, still crying...
calling my mom but my voice couldnt escape... dad came home and hugged me but he was left 5 mins ago for business...
I'm still speechless and full of ingus ;______;