what upppp, so a lot of stuff has happened this semester. I haven't been updating recently so that has to change.
Spring'13 semester has been pretty chill for now. But ive been recently experiencing some crazy shit: being busy. ahahah. theres just ALOT of stuff thats been on my mind and frankly school work is one of them. However the most time consuming thing is probably my internship? ARP film is a really crazy company that im a part of and so far its pretty intense. Im part of the marketing department, (hopefully soon to be in the editing department) and about to be a sales person for them too. Basically, lots of meetings and preparations for casting a lot of potential actors. Its all fun but obviously there are other stuff I need to be worried about which pretty much puts me into a tight spot.
School is also another big part of change that ive been going through. Ever since i transferred to bing, i haven't been putting a lot of effort to school work, for several personal reasons. But now its different I suppose.
Ive promised myself and someone else that I will start to approach a different route, at my own pace. I need to change, in fact, I kinda want to change. The person I am now is someone you'll never want to be. I held ALOT of grudges, had alot of trust issues, and most importantly my repulsive past was killing me (and I took it all in, because of the lone fact that I 'thought' I was a strong person). but truth is... and i guess i realized this last semester, is that all i needed was someone; Someone who was there for me; a relationship. My determination to become a different person actually started towards the end of last semester after I met someone.
Someone told me straight up my biggest problem was her. it took me a few days to figure it out, but shes right. So i messaged her and finally replied back to her on fb after i was randomly looking through my old fb messages. And it felt kinda good? in a sense that there is one less thing to finally worry about. And when she finally replied back to me and read the whole thing... that was when I could surely say,I was the most happiest. It literally made my night. It was all sincere and all the confusion just...finally... diminished.... and it really fucking hurts to say this but... for the first time I think I cried a little reading it..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8PTDv_szmL0
Finally, I just want to confront about a few things that I feel like I should say. Ive been feeling like shit for the past few days lol. who knows why, cuz i really dont. Its just one of those days where you wish you just wanted to be alone, and theres really no one you can really talk to because in the end... youre basically alone.
eenie meenie - Justin Bieber
Spring'13 semester has been pretty chill for now. But ive been recently experiencing some crazy shit: being busy. ahahah. theres just ALOT of stuff thats been on my mind and frankly school work is one of them. However the most time consuming thing is probably my internship? ARP film is a really crazy company that im a part of and so far its pretty intense. Im part of the marketing department, (hopefully soon to be in the editing department) and about to be a sales person for them too. Basically, lots of meetings and preparations for casting a lot of potential actors. Its all fun but obviously there are other stuff I need to be worried about which pretty much puts me into a tight spot.
School is also another big part of change that ive been going through. Ever since i transferred to bing, i haven't been putting a lot of effort to school work, for several personal reasons. But now its different I suppose.
Ive promised myself and someone else that I will start to approach a different route, at my own pace. I need to change, in fact, I kinda want to change. The person I am now is someone you'll never want to be. I held ALOT of grudges, had alot of trust issues, and most importantly my repulsive past was killing me (and I took it all in, because of the lone fact that I 'thought' I was a strong person). but truth is... and i guess i realized this last semester, is that all i needed was someone; Someone who was there for me; a relationship. My determination to become a different person actually started towards the end of last semester after I met someone.
Someone told me straight up my biggest problem was her. it took me a few days to figure it out, but shes right. So i messaged her and finally replied back to her on fb after i was randomly looking through my old fb messages. And it felt kinda good? in a sense that there is one less thing to finally worry about. And when she finally replied back to me and read the whole thing... that was when I could surely say,I was the most happiest. It literally made my night. It was all sincere and all the confusion just...finally... diminished.... and it really fucking hurts to say this but... for the first time I think I cried a little reading it..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8PTDv_szmL0
Finally, I just want to confront about a few things that I feel like I should say. Ive been feeling like shit for the past few days lol. who knows why, cuz i really dont. Its just one of those days where you wish you just wanted to be alone, and theres really no one you can really talk to because in the end... youre basically alone.
eenie meenie - Justin Bieber