woops!

I came to my parents house last night, and I am skipping my work today.

It is middle of during ther week, i shouldn't been taking break but

I was dead tired these past few days,

I knew that I would take a day off or at least been later for work today,

eventually I called in .

Since I joined the dance lesson, i don't really get any rest except on Saturday.....

Well, I am free today, but there is a list of things i have to do, which is ok,

cuz no obligation.

I hope my co-worker don't mined me taking day off

( ofcourse no, they don't even speak to me in the offfice)

I just have to hope that my RSM won't think that I am not capable to hundle my work,

but truth is.... i am having hard time with my work, and atomsphere in the office.

It is damn quiet and uncomfotable to make a phone calls, I know no one cares but still.....

It is still 10;30am now i better get started things i planed for the day.

Hope everyone is having good day!

see ya ; )

New job

wow, it has been so long since I wrote blog.......

I didn't think my page is still exsisted on the Ameba blog, they changed the design and it's got a lot better than before.

Anyway, I am at parentts house today , just to get some good food, i actually shoudn't be here cuz today is only Thurseday, have to work tomorrow. oh well I needed to be my self somewhere i can be relax.

I wanna update my current situation before i start any of my stories.

I currently change my carrier from VST to internet service company, I really belive that this company is totally related future world wide business. I am so happy to get involve in this company.

Still have a same boyfriend, started new job last week, just studying company training.

Sice i quit my old job , i have been a lot better condition than before, still get tired from work but much better!!

loose control

I did it again..........got drank , screwed everything.

It was pretty bad last night, I ended up in the hospital.

When I wake up I was in the bed having needle my arms.

my friend was with me , my mom pick me up and pay the bill.

I guess I am still child even I am 26yld.

Well , it started when I saw my boyfriend with other girl,

he cheated on me, it wasn't like i was in love this guy

but seeing him with other girl, it really hit me that no body i can trust.

He sais he love me all the time but may be it was just a word.

I remember the half of story last night ,but being on the embrance

totaly no idea what happend, I guess I got too much drank and

lost my mind, friend told me I started fight with other peolpe in the club.

All the crazy stuff i did last night and it is over betwwen me and

my boyfriend, what a nice holiday this is ............

I guess , everything happens for rason, if i am getting punished for

someting , I have to accept. but.....I just don't know what yet.

Started dizzy again, better get back to bed.

I just wanted to remind my self what I have done to myself and

never ever do it again. No more drink for one month.

引越し

It has been more than a month since I updated this blog.............so long.

I was kind of giving up this blog, reason (1) too busy (2)can not have a time myself latey. (3) not much subject to publish. (4) only one person read my blog.........thank you Ms.Anzu san

Anyway, I move out from Minatoku and now living with my parents. kind a boring out here but it is nice to hung with my family........

Actually, I was bored yesterday at night, wanted to go out but I was too lazy to take a train to go anywhere, that's what happens, when you move out of the city everything you have to have a lot of motivation to do any activity.

I have to find a place as soon as possible to get out of this quiet area. hahaha- before i get too old to get drank with my girl friends

Rain and thunder

After I went to gym, I stop by Donqi-hote to buy a CD last night, but when I get out side, there was strong rain and thunder!!!! I should have gone home insted of stopping by the store......so ,when I was waiting for a while, there was one brack guy , really bothering me., that he want to my number. I was like ,ha? "go away" I didn't say it to him but I was litlle bitchy atitude, still he was talking to me so I just walk in the rain. I don't really care about people around roppongi cuz they are whatevers, I don't say everybody but most people are just drank and looking for a girl to have a fun with.......I also go there to have a fun with my friends but not for finding a guy. Wel some time there is a cute guys too ,but they are either vacation or , usually good one's are taken, oh well. I guess since i don't have a partner either, my be I am just like one of them.