cloudy days

It has been cloudy since I realized that my decisions about my ways of life are not always perfect.

It is pretty natural that people sometime make wrong decisions unintentionally.

I cried today because I am not being happy about myself.

I need to change.

I have to study and thankful for everybody.

I have love.

I have hope.

I have truth.

I have promises.

It's never be late to go out.

I was born to love myself and you.

I wanna find myself as a part of you.

I passed WPE and graduated in Dec 07.

And I came back to Japan on 23 Dec 07.

And I work ar Johnson Controls.

I am so excited about What I am going to do for my future plan.

Don't forget to write.

feelings

I have to get rid of my negative feelings. Some anger, jelous, anxiety, saddness, lonelyness, and other strong feelings have been interrupt my views.

do what u have to do immediately!

what the fuck with my english?

everything is fucked up what's happend to my brain. please let me go. I wanna be free.

things goes well when you are sure about what you do.

I am not sure what I do because I did not do my work today.

It's sunday and time to do my work. but I never did my work I did not try at all and realized how I hate myself.

I lost all my enthusiasm just like when I was 22 and lived with ashley. She and I were totally lost and never found better ways.

I reached up to this life and I love my life except the nebors. I hate next door keeps their TV on at night I hate it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I don't wanna be a hater. I wanna be better person. I hate when I cannot do anything like I cannot control the weather at all. I am deprressed and sttressed out.

Help me from this room. I love my life but I hate it when I am a hater.

today

is sunday.

i feel good because I am going to run run run! across the Manhattan beach to Redondo beach.

I've been doing good and over coming from the dippresses thats may because of my dad has been playing arond asia crazy.

I feel something when somewone behave a little bit different from as usual.

I don't know why I was that dippressed for this two weeks.

I will try to be cool and spend time well.

what the fuck with my english?!!!

I need to study hard...

cuz I will start my job from April next year at Johnson controls.

stay cool.