Aaa..again i couldnt sleep becaude thinking about something again...
I was reading a shojo manga while thinking about what did happen with my school life.
If i think about it...they werent a good memories...
I wasn't good at socializing with people, and being comfortable with just a few members than being popular in the class.
But....what i remembered was my dark side of young me.
I ever did a ganging in to one student
I didnt like once when i was a junior schooler. I even forget about the reason but i did cornering someone with my friends because i didnt like that girl.
Then karma came to me.
That time my wallet was missing during PE...i was crying because there were my parent's money in that wallet. Then a teacher came in, asked me if i saw someone during PE came in the class. That time i was so confused and scared, i just pointed someone randomly. Because of that...i was hated.
Again, i wasnt that popular in high school too, and enjoyed my time with my circle of friend.
That time a was in the worst time. My father had a cancer when i graduated my junior highschool. He could endured it until i got in the 2nd grade of high school. Then he was gone forever when i was 17th.
I was so young that time, i didnt know what to do, how should i react, i even fainted when he was buried.
After that, i really lose way of my life. I knew my mother try her hard, in the same time i felt desparate i couldn't do anything.
I forgot how to react on my worst time ever. I, who was used to be spoiled by my father. I, who hadn't given anything to my father.
Then i didn't really remember but it seemed that i betray my friends expectation.
Then i was deserted, they made a gap between us. The worst is one of them sat beside me and we were awkward.
Karma did exist, eh
But well, when the graduation party we were making up then i move to other city.
....
Here start my college life.
Indeed, my social life in univ wasn't the best too.
....
Moreover, i didn't have an experience with boy.
Many things happened.
I ever got in problems in social media, until i decided to close it.
Then if i think about it now, there were time when i was wearing an office skirt, and somebody touched my thigh. I couldn't react fast, i was confused. Until my male friends asked me if i was okay, what did he do to me?
That time i didn't really know what was going on but thanks God, God still there to help me...nothing happened.
What's the point from all of this blabbering....well...
This should be written for me too.
Listen me
Beyond those hard times, you have been thaught.
I was reading a shojo manga while thinking about what did happen with my school life.
If i think about it...they werent a good memories...
I wasn't good at socializing with people, and being comfortable with just a few members than being popular in the class.
But....what i remembered was my dark side of young me.
I ever did a ganging in to one student
I didnt like once when i was a junior schooler. I even forget about the reason but i did cornering someone with my friends because i didnt like that girl.
Then karma came to me.
That time my wallet was missing during PE...i was crying because there were my parent's money in that wallet. Then a teacher came in, asked me if i saw someone during PE came in the class. That time i was so confused and scared, i just pointed someone randomly. Because of that...i was hated.
Again, i wasnt that popular in high school too, and enjoyed my time with my circle of friend.
That time a was in the worst time. My father had a cancer when i graduated my junior highschool. He could endured it until i got in the 2nd grade of high school. Then he was gone forever when i was 17th.
I was so young that time, i didnt know what to do, how should i react, i even fainted when he was buried.
After that, i really lose way of my life. I knew my mother try her hard, in the same time i felt desparate i couldn't do anything.
I forgot how to react on my worst time ever. I, who was used to be spoiled by my father. I, who hadn't given anything to my father.
Then i didn't really remember but it seemed that i betray my friends expectation.
Then i was deserted, they made a gap between us. The worst is one of them sat beside me and we were awkward.
Karma did exist, eh
But well, when the graduation party we were making up then i move to other city.
....
Here start my college life.
Indeed, my social life in univ wasn't the best too.
....
Moreover, i didn't have an experience with boy.
Many things happened.
I ever got in problems in social media, until i decided to close it.
Then if i think about it now, there were time when i was wearing an office skirt, and somebody touched my thigh. I couldn't react fast, i was confused. Until my male friends asked me if i was okay, what did he do to me?
That time i didn't really know what was going on but thanks God, God still there to help me...nothing happened.
What's the point from all of this blabbering....well...
This should be written for me too.
Listen me
Beyond those hard times, you have been thaught.