Sometimes i wonder why i took up this job and wanted to do it in the first place. As i was training to get into this position, i was told on multiple occasions that that job isn’t as glamorous as it seems to be. But being me, as I have something set, I want to give it my best shot, so I wouldn’t look back one day and say to myself, why didn’t try it, you never know until you experienced it.
Now I finally made it, and things like that happened today (actually started yesterday) reminds me of the times I was warned. Yep, I got to deal with people and make sure everyone is happy and things are turned around on time with no excuses, and make the impossible become possible during the desperate times you feel like giving up and crying. I always reflect on whether I’m the right person for this kind of role, i’m not sly, aggressive enough and I can bullshit… I find it so hard to lie. I can’t help but show my thoughts even if I’m not saying them. It just reflects by my body language and expression. I’m just can’t pretend to be something or someone I’m not. Could this be a weakness??
I hope this last email concludes the situation. I’m totally not happy by the fact that I need to apologise for something I didn’t do wrong. But since I need to maintain the relationship with these people (you can say client I guess) the best way to resolve this is to bow my head down. I hate to admit to something I know I did the right thing for. However as suggested by the seniors it would be advisable and I did think about it all day and true I guess I need to, though in a way that I’m not directly admitting to it, only in a way to acknowledge the situation and apologise for any inconveniences caused.
Overall, they should know they are required to rectify the situation regardless. But of course along the way, people don’t like to be told they have done the wrong thing, hence it has backed fired to me.
My colleague who is in the same role as well always tells me, in this job, it always comes to your fault… he is right this time… people just can’t hack their error but need to point fingers and since you are “ground staff” its always YOU….
Fine I’ll cop it- hopefully only this time and will be the last time, but deep inside I know I’m right. I can’t let my pride get in the way for future visits.
On the other hand, I’m glad its not these people I’m visiting here…. Though the visit is coming soon and I need to face them… a bit scared actually.
I just need to keep telling myself, this is a learning curve and it will only make me a stronger person.
Up to my second chamomile tea… probably explains why I feel drowsy now.. its getting harder to concentrate and write anymore on my blog. Then again I also have been up since 5am today and still wearing contacts coz i for forgot my glasses... ai....
Time to snooze… need to get up at 6:30.. I want to get to site at 8am.
Nitey nites.