Hi there ! Good morning!
It's very cloudy here.
How are you doing?
明日はChristmas Eveですね！
今年はイブもクリスマスも平日ですから、at workの大人の方が多いでしょうか。
どんどん年末に近づいてきて、大して予定があるわけではありませんが、なんだかワクワクします＼(^^)／
(Tomorrow will be Chritsmas Eve! Christmas Eve and Christmas are on weekdays this year, so I guess a lot of employees will be at work. It is getting closer to the New Year's season! I have not had any plans yet, but I am excited to spend time at this end of the year!)
さて、本日は朝から、最近の英語学習について書き留めたいと思います。
ずーっと、やんわり持っていた将来の目標を最近、強く持ち始めました。
(Anyway, let's get started! Today I am going to write about my recent English study. Long long long time ago, I had a dream that I wanted to live in an other country. That was just a dream. But nowadays the dream is getting concrete one.)
「日本国外で英語のノンネイティブとして英語を教える」という大それた目標。
最近、心が折れそうになりますーーー！！(爆) 大きすぎる目標（遠い将来）に執着しすぎると、達成するイメージができなくて、ヤバいです。。でも、あきらめたくない！！
ということで、もう少し毎日のタスク、短めスパンの目的に焦点を当ててみたいと思い立ちました。
("To teach English outside Japan as a non-native English speaker!!" This is my dream. But it is very big. I am sometimes about to give up my dream. If the dream is too big, you sometimes cannot imagine you will achieve that. But I do not want to give up! So, I decided to focus on a short-term goal and everyday tasks to achieve.)
とにかく2021年の目標は、「英検1級合格」チャンスは2回。そのあとも、発音、ほかの英語関係の資格などなど、取りたいものはたくさんあります❢❢日々、やらなきゃいけないこと（半ば強制w）に執着しすぎて、英語学習自体を楽しめていないような気がしています。。それでは、今は大丈夫でも、いつか疲れてしまう！かなりの長期戦なので、それはいかん！！
何か考えなおします(/ω＼)
(First, as a small step, I decided to pass the 1st grade on Eiken this year. I have two chances. After I pass it, there are some qualifications that I want to get, such as for pronunciation and other English tests. I put too much focus on the tasks these days and I felt that I did not enjoy learning. Although it is okay right now, someday I will not be able to keep learning. It is going to be a long journey, so that is definately not good for me. I will reconsider my goals and everyday tasks again to enjoy learning.)
Thank you very much for reading!
See you soon:) Bye!