from 3 to11:30pm in convenience store.
my boss and his wife were there.
i tried to be nice, but i couldnt.
they blamed me every second.

i can understand he blamed me about last nite
i know i was so selfish, and i regret about it.
i shouldnt have said like that.
of course he is angry.

but she usually blames me about sth not fair n not real things.

wht r u doing in sheraton everyday? just sitting?
u should c jenny, even while she is waiting her dinner, she is working. u must do same things in sheraton.
why r u still stock the things? u should count phone card now, u know it,right?

excuse me?

how can u know wht im doing in sheraton??
i was doing same things w/ jenny while i was waiting my dinner just 10min before her,right?
i always do it in sheraton,too! every time after customer came,
do u really know how many customers come to the shop??
only 30-40 ppl per day!! how many times do i have to do like that
can i do same things for 8hours!?
ive never worked full time in conveny, and havent got trained, how can i know how to close??
i even dont know wht time ppl who work pm finish the work. i just knew it tdy!!!

why does she blame me every time when we meet.



hmm--
i know im so selfish, and i was drunk a little bit yesterday.

but he can say that ill need to work at mercure.
why he asked me!!
and it has been more than 2 month since i got trained.
i really afraid and dont have any confidence to work there. besides thief comes there.
i cant fight w/ them.hh

and i used to work at sheraton even mitsuyo san worked @sheraton.
i had been worked only sheraton.
that means i dont have to work @ another place,right?
why suddenly he asked me to work another place??

im better than the others who work there.
i clean, sell more than the others and order stuffs.
im doing well in sheraton.
thats weird.

and bella will have to work @ 2places this saturday,haha
he put me only 3days @convenience store this week.
he must be angry,and doesnt wanna put me in sheraton.

what a hell

i have nothing fun recently,,
actually, when im w/ my friends, i dont think anything,
but when im alone, i feel terrible.
what am i doing here?
what do i wanna do now,also in the future??
should i go back to japan and get married??

i just wanna be free.
and wanna enjoy.
but i feel lonely.
シドニー来て2カ月半、
2年目のビザも取りたいって思った!!

ワーホリでこっちに来てる人は、
ほとんどが年上で
みんな好きなことやって
ほんまに楽しそう

あたしはまだ20で
海外経験もまだなくて
シドニー来てまだ2カ月

やろうと思えば、何年だってやりたいことできる!!
30までは落ち着かんくても
全然やってけるんやと思った!!

何も1年で帰ることなんてない
自分がやりたいことやれればいい
人生振り返って
いろんなとこ行って
いろんなもの見て
いろんな体験して
楽しかったなって思いたい
まだいろんなことしたい

しげきには待っててなくていいってゆった
あたしはもしかしたら
1年で帰るかもしれんけど
10年も帰らんかもしれん
将来一緒にいたいのはしげきやけど
今したいことは別
しげきのこと考えて
締め付けられるのは嫌や
それでも待つ
ってゆってくれた
これから何十年も一緒にいるんやから
今の10年一緒に過ごさんくても
お互いがしたいことすればいいよね

あたしの希望は
とりあえず1年オーストラリア
3か月ファームかどっか行って
もうリターンの航空券あるから
3~5月くらいに1回帰って
アレに会いにメキシコと、行ければそこらへんの国回って
またラリア来て
そのうちハミルトンでインターンして
1回日本帰って
うまいこと行けば派遣でアメリカ1年行って、
そんでからカナダ行って、、
いろいろ考えてたら
先が長すぎてよくわからんくなってくる、、

でもしたいことはいっぱい
とりあえず今は
ファームどうするかと
メキシコ!!
楽しみー!!

みんなラリア来てー!!