This will sound strange, I know, but despite the initial unpleasant, abrasive sensation while doing sinus nasal rinses... I like the stinging feeling and the chlorinated smell because it reminds me of when I used to go swimming all of the time as a child. The smell of chlorine is nice, it reminds me of rain and the smell of petrichor on the cement during and after a hazy downpour. It may seem weird to say I like the smell of chlorine, but the acerbic sensation and tingling feeling it gives me makes me feel happy especially since I have a very acute sense of smell.
I took the kitties for a walk outside today and the weather was ideal, I like when the sky is a dark grey and everything feels cool and calm. When the sky makes the shrubs appear to be a dark green and there is a gentle, icy breeze. The cats seemed to enjoy going out in that weather too, I eventually want to get harnesses for them, but they let me pick them up and take them for a walk outside in small rotations. Karna is more tame with being carried, Kenma used to feel very nervous about going outside, but recently, he's wanted me to pick him up and take him out, too! He's smaller than Karna, so he's more sensitive and fragile––Kenny is like a tiny teddy bear.
It's taken me a little bit to find my voice again, but at this rate, I might be able to start writing prose regularly again. When I revisited Takashi Miike's "Box" short, it brought me back to a story that I was writing––about twins, the red and blue oni dynamic blossomed an interest in that premise again. Sometimes mortal matters can be really complicated, something bad can happen and it can take the mind years and years to recover. And sometimes it's not as clean as recovering because you fall back a few steps along the way. The stitches from the lobotomy are taking their time with healing up.
Let's do our best to move forward together, ephemories!