Welcome! Welcome to the diaries of the one who devours your dreams! My name is ephemerry (you may call me "Merry" for short), I am a lobotomized white cat that is an interloper of sorts... today I cleaned my dimension. Rather throughly... I had 4-5 trash bags full of things to dispose of. Upon my travails of housework, a little black beetle was crawling very meekly upon a sweater that I was going to wash, I have now identified it as a Pinacate beetle!
I have a particular affinity towards insects [especially for spiders, beetles, and ladybugs... which count as a type of beetle I suppose, mufufu], perhaps I was one in my past life, who knows! Anyhow... back to the story, the beetle was clinging to the sweater for dear life! I opened the door and squatted down, gently waiting for the small creature to descend! When it finally did, it fell on its back and started wriggling, to which, I reacted by collecting a small stem off of the ground and propping the small guy up and as I watched, he headed towards the nearby thicket.
Since I am without a tablet to draw on, I did doodles in pen today. I feel like I have had cursed fingers ever since I was young because whenever I draw organically, I draw awful things! I drew a woman in the nude as a study, then I drew a skull with a third eye crying blood on top of her head, then the blood leaked all over her hair, and eyes, and fang-toothed mouth. And I drew her with fully formed hands, but amputated legs, one at the knee and one a little above the ankle. I feel like since I modeled her after myself, the gore might have been a subtle wish-fulfillment, a type of guro fantasy, you could say. Only God would know: I'm only a lobotomized cat after all, so I cannot confirm these suspicions for sure!
Note to self: Drawing it felt a bit cathartic, so even though I always horrify myself, perhaps I should do it more often. "Shadow work"... a Jungian psychologist would say! Yes, yes, I concur inner-Merry!
I played at bit of Master Duel with friends! I beat Yuri for the first time! It was quite fun to engage with human activities with mortals and partial mortals alike!
Currently reading: "Sunglasses After Dark" by Nancy A. Collins