Hello, has Merry entered your dreams yet?
The culmination of events today and yesterday (speed-run edition): 1. I acquired a male to female AUX connector for my mic, only to learn that I already had one nestled in the corner of my sticker-stamped train case, ahaha, a true lobotomy moment! 2. I accidentally poured skin exfoliating powder directly into my left eye... which irritated it to the point of looking like half of a blood moon. I'm not mortal, so ailments like this don't bother me as seriously as most, so 'tis not a problem, 3. I tried a new lunch box from the Sprouts next to the grocery store! 'Tis was delicious! It has crackers, different assortments of cheeses (including brie), and grapes!
I had a vision of two doppelgänger characters that resemble a character that I made in 2021: their names are "Blood Orchid" and "Blood Iris"! I imagined them existing in a Victorian setting, perhaps I thought of these things because I have been reminiscing on Anne Rice's Vampire Chronicles series recently! Speaking of twin motifs, I have been wanting to improve with realistic human art, so I can draw Billy Corgan from The Smashing Pumpkins (my favorite band of all time). I am much better at drawing anime art then abject realism, but I have an exact idea of what I want to illustrate: tarot cards (The Fool, 0, and Death, 13) for the Billy a.k.a. Zero persona and death for the latter William identity. Once, I almost ended my own life as a small kitten, but discovering their Adore album at a used bookstore saved me.
Recently, I've felt like I'm learning to live my life over again, like a small kitten. I am rediscovering my feelings for a father once estranged. Through feelings of broken helplessness, I am fathoming the lost emotions of life and love again, like a child would... but in my case, it's a very wounded child. Trying to learn to trust and be carried out of the veil of darkness! Why did I make that sound like a wedding?
I saw a Moomin journal that I really wanted at Barnes & Noble, I walked there after buying the cable and was marked with a large sunburn necklace for walking so much (I am a white cat for a reason, I am very pale)! The journal had Jansson's art of Moomintroll on the cover, and the concept of the diary was interesting. It was a 5-year journal where you write 1-2 sentences to describe your day, and for each year, you can compare the columns! When I officially debut as ephemerry, I've promised myself to buy this journal to chronicle 5 years of my Vtuber journey.
Footnote: In January of 2023, I watched Tanoshii Moomin Ikka on stream! It was one of the most delightful moments of my time as a Vtuber! It had a deep impact on my and I yearned to be as free as Snufkin and to travel.