I was too busy running forward
To look back, even for a second
And now I've gone far ahead
To the point where I can't see
The obstacles that I've overcome.
All that's visible in the distance
Is a landscape I don't recognize.
As of now, I am studying for the big math exam tomorrow. I haven't written back here for a multitude of reasons which I am not exactly ready to indulge upon right now.
But hey, the countdown I've been mentioning over and over has finally reached its end. It has been quite a journey, I won't deny that. Ups and downs. As a person, I like to think that I've grown, but that's not up to me.
This summer, I'd like to accomplish many things, both materialistic and as a person, but mostly as a person. I hope to look back on my posts for inspiration, and I plan to do so. Right now, I'm one light in the wide sky. To get noticed, I have to shine brighter.
I don't understand why there is so much unhappiness in a place that is filled with light. These grey feelings have finally resurfaced again... and I feel helpless. I don't know what else to add about it. I don't want to seem overemotional, yet these feelings are just there. Sitting, brewing, concocting. I don't know what I can do with them, to throw them away would be impossible, to conceal them would be trouble waiting to happen. So I sit and wait until they are gone. The time before me seems helplessly long, I don't know what I'm going to do and I don't know what I want to do. The people around me seem so content, but I'm being eaten by these raw emotions. Maybe they will blow over once again, but until then it feels hopeless.