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Right now, I'm really angry and sad.

It's really hard for me to depend on people. I don't doubt their abilities or think they are stupid, I don't feel superior either. I just don't want to burden them. But today, when I needed to depend on someone the most, I was disappointed beyond words.

I never try to get mad, because I feel ridiculous, it's a waste of time being mad. I get mad over being mad. I surpress it, I don't want to whine about life and its hardships. But right now it's kind of hard. I don't know what to do to be taken seriously when I need it the most. I listen. I listen a lot. and I care. But when I want these feelings to be returned the most, I am denied.

I think my first step today, was letting it out. I don't feel any regret showing that I am hurt. Because I'm not going to hide it all the time. I'm only human.