みんなのおかげ！

みんなは、

朝起きたら、一番最初に何を考える？

あたしは　おととい、

朝　起きたら、

完璧に晴れた青空と、

眩しい太陽が窓から見えて、

初めてこう思いました。

「生きてて、良かった！」　　って！　о(ж＞▽＜)ｙ ☆

風邪　引いていたせいか　知らないけど、

自分の人生について　深く考えたりして　（そう　たまには　考えるんだよ）

やっぱり健康が一番だな！

という結論に、またもや　たどり着いた　えみりの日でした。

作詞や作曲、レコーディングやリハ、そして学校・・・

全部大好きだし　楽しいけど、

結局　やらなきゃいけないことで　毎日に追われ、

自分は人間として、「生きる」ということに関して、

満たされているのだろうか・・・？

もっと人生には意味があるはず、

と思うのは、単にわがままなのか？

それとも　普通の人間としての　欲　なのか・・・？

朦朧とした考えの中で、

ひとり　立っている　私。

色々歩き回った結果、

健康が何より！

という　最終的には　おっぱっぴーな結論に達したえみりでした。

ってゆーかそれより！

みんなのラブのおかげで、

風邪が治っちゃったよ！

もう満面の笑みです

ありがとう！

さすが　えみりファン

x x x

what's the very first thought you have the moment you wake up?

i usually don't think of anything but gooooooosh another day of school.. but a few days ago, it was different. i woke up, looked at the perfect blue sky with the blinding sun, and for the first time, this is what came to mind: i felt so damn good to be alive. weird, yeah?! i'm assuming the cold i got somehow made me think this way hahaha. but i truly felt glad that i was alive. i guess we have those "moments." or maybe it's just me, who knows.

speaking of the "cold".. i think i really needed this rest cuz it got me thinking real deep about my life. though i love my job and my school, i'm always under pressure--just like anybody else--to get something done by a deadline, such as having my lyrics done by next week, turning in a paper tomorrow, etc... and somehow, within that cycle, something gets lost. and that something is usually what you call the "meaning" or "purpose" of life. as i'm pushed to get something done, i don't think of anything else besides getting that done; but once it's gone, i start to wonder, isn't there something missing? what's this indescribable void in my heart? i know i'm blessed to have this life, and i am very happy, but shouldn't there be something more to life? what does it REALLY mean "to live"? and i start contemplating whether these feelings are just simply out of selfishness, or out of plain human desire to want more. and i think and i think, and when i can think no longer, i get on myspace. HAHAH just kidding i try to find an answer to my questions.. and somehow, i concluded to myself that i was just lucky to be alive. so maybe that's why i felt so euphoric in the morning a few days ago ;]

anywaaaay!

i gotta thank you all for your love & kindness; i appreciate every one of you who has wished me well. thanks to you, i feel much much better now :D

i have the best fans.

xoxo.