原來問題唔係在於係唔係同佢或同邊個
原來問題係...事情邊成咁腐朽,我唔理點,
只想神可以出黎收科
現在好似有一點不足...
好似貪玩弄破了一個花瓶,
地上散佈左好多玻璃片
我已經講左對唔住,我已經好後悔
亦已經唔再玩,開始乖乖地坐響度
但係就係無大人幫我打掃...
而我自己係完全唔可能做呢一部份,只有大人先可以
但係就係無被打掃我的感覺...
我只想神你幫我打掃番佢,然後我唔再亂跑,玩我可以玩0既野...
I really wanna vomit, I have a feeling of having something under my throat and I really want to vomit. I don't care. I don't want any old things and I even don't want anything rooted from the past. I don't care, in your name, just take it away from me. No matter in which place, doing what, just your will. Bless me and prosper me, forgive and cleanse my sin. That is.
I don't long for more the old wicked sickening past.
I just want the new, holy, blessed, prosperous and joyful future with my present and future family.
In Jesus' name
Amen
そうですか。。。
本当にわすれました、伝道の理由。
日本へ行くのはではなくて、
その楽しさのためではなくて。
人の霊、人の時間、人のお金、
人の悩み、皆の家族、大切な生命だ。
だから、教会へ行くのは、自分のためではなく、
この準備だ。。。
今日は約束を完成して、すべき事が終わりました。
なんか怖くて、本当に出来るか出来ないか分からない。
信仰はどこへ行っちゃったの？
ううん、希望ではなくて、信仰で。
本当に好きになった。。。～～君のこと。。。どうしょう？
彼は最近も。。。やっぱり二人も分かってるね、このこと。
んんんんんんん。。。。。。無理だ無理だ～ぜんぜん違うじゃないの。。。
今すべきのは就職活動と勉強と信仰の栽培と遊びだけだ。
就職就職就職。。。
もう、パソコンとネートを使わない。（必要な時だけ使うね）
時間を棒に振ったよ～～～
だから、こっちもさいよなら～
すばらしい ホーリ・ナイン
ありがとう かみさま こころからありがとう
わたしたちのために いつさありがとう。。。
これを聴いたら、平安になり、近い感じある
現在すべきことは就職だけです。これだけです。
次のは日本語の学び、後は英語のはです。
最近主と遠くになった。分からない、理由は分からない。
自分が諦めましたから。。。？主はわたしが好きではないか？
分からない、でも、ただ、泣きたいです。
主は私と離れたから。。。泣きたいです。
So tired right now...
Well, but what a wonderful day cuz it was fruitfull, meaningful and full of dynamic.
Tuesday is always the day of love and hate. I have to wake up at 6:30 a.m. and leave the campus at 5:30p.m. What a day! Yet, it is a day that I love the most. In the class of "China, Japanese and Korean Government Business Relations", it is just like attending in the United Nations. There are only 2 Hong Kong people out of the 20. Using English, Japanese or maybe the "anryohaseyo" to greet the Koreans, communicating with the others always makes me feel so free. I feel like I can talk faster and clearer in English or Japanese. Well, I dislike Cantonese but love Mandarin. Cantonese is such a barbarian language for me cuz I know what are the people saying out there when they use curse words or... whatever. It makes me feel like my life could also become such superficial if I use it. Well, to be frank, it is just because I don't know much English or Japanese curse words or expressions. I feel like my mother tougue is the language that is other than Cantonese...
Lost in identity? Why do I so fed up with Hong Kong since I was in secondary school? But anyway, I don't care, gone with the wind, flow with the water, scream when you are on the roller coaster. Move on to the new level huh!? Pretty good. The satisfaction and joy of being able to read Japanese books is wordless. Just like a blink, God has given me such chance and put this ability on me. Press on and move on, the target of this year is level 1.
Well, a Canadian named Bart sat next to me today. I just like chatting with people like this. He just doesn't care if I have already put my bag on the seat and took it away and ... just sat next to me. (Well, actually it is pretty normal for westerns to do this. I believe only Hong Kong students like skipping one table from strangers) Then throughout the lesson, just chatted and asked questions. When he introduced himself "Bart", I had a pretty strong repsonse. "Oh... you are", "What? what do you mean, that's mean.." (with laughs) I said, "I knew that there is someone named Bart in this class and this makes me think about The Simpsons." That is.
Cool Cool Cool, having dinner in TST and shopped a little bit before time.
Get tired enough for me to have a nice sleep... Another round for tmr.
If one day, the whole world has no poultry because of slaughtering
them as a result of the high spread virus H5N1... Then what would the world be? Another extinction of a wide range of species like the dinosaur
did? Or... what does it mean to me
......
No more my beloved fatty health-threatening tasty chicken wings in the McDonalds...
If the Devil wants to destroy my life, there is only one reason.
It knows how great I can be and how blessed I can be in my life which is surrendered and be united with Jesus Christ, the son of God and my savior, my power, my refuge, my hidding place, my spring in heart, my way, my love, my family, my career, my prosperity, my preaching, my destined nation, etc...
Now, I am really got angry this time!
You, get lost and I am going to get all back with Jesus Christ and my sword in my hand.
You, just get lost and be prepared to wait for the loss in your life cuz I am going to get all back.
I am not going to be a coward, I am going to be and I am a warrior now.
I renounce the past. I renounce the world. I renounce sin. I renounce flesh. I renounce failure.
I renounce the fear from you. I am going to get it back, all. You wait and see.
The 5 dollars will become 500 billion dollars at the end of the days when Jesus comes back.
I will offer my 500 billion dollars to Him at that time, just get back all that 500 billion dollars from you. Listen, each dollar means for 1 thing and I am going to get all not only 1.
1. TDC
2. Japan experience
3. Preacher
4. Erase the dark force from the past to the future and new white garment will be put on us
5. My house and I will serve the Lord