oh yes,
I have been seeking for the power
but not his love....
The main point is.... His love and He is love
Lord,
Yes, thank you for your message. I have lost and I deliberately lost my rights to take over that business in me in October 2005. Now, because of your compassion, (Do you believe that He loves you? Do you believe that no matter what! no matter what He loves you and put you into the best that you can ever have in your life. Not only the best, but the miracle. He is just asking this, "Do you believe that I love you so much that it was not a mistake, it was not a punishment, it was not a joke on you, but it is love on you. Do you believe. It is not something about the Bible study, it is not something about the butter or holy spirit or the power or the supernatural miracles in me. But, it is just about love."
Do you believe?
Do you believe that just I just need you to accept it.
Remember my words and follow strictly to my laws and my way.
Don't forget your God is the first and the last in your life.
Don't forget who you are (an ambassador)
Don't forget your friends and family (where you sow your seed of love to the others because of me) Don't forget your study and your job (the grace and the blessings that I have given unto you so that you can work in my kingdom)
Don't forget my laws and my ways for you will suffer because of my ever lasting words, even Moses couldn't escape from it.
Don't defile your spirit, your soul and your body for it is my temple. How dare if someone defile it.
Don't forget that I am not your last resort but your first consultant in life.
Don't forget what I delight with, that is faith, hope, love, positive, gentile, peace, joy, compassion, honesty, etc.
Don't forget what I hate most.... idols, defile my kingdom, pride, hate, laziness, etc.
Spread the words is what you have to do in your life for I want to free them from bondages.
Lord, I am not asking for a magic. I am not asking for your wand to be swung at this moment. I am asking for your will and do according to who you are. No, I am not asking this because somethings may stirs my soul, but I just want to know and finish it in you. If it really hurts, please carry me through because of who you are.
Thank you for giving me life and teach me to love and live with others successfully in you. I can't live without you cuz I just don't know even until now. I don't want my life to be a failure, I want it to be a glory in you.
In Jesus' name I pray
yes I am ready now, thank you for your long suffering and endurance on me.
Amen
New revelation~
Before I thought faith is "God's faith", that is "I am" that is the power that he can offer.
Yet, today I have got another revelation, to believe in God is to know who He really is in ultmost.
He can or He will? The power or the heart of his?
Faith is to know God's faith that He is the "I am".
Yet a higher level of faith is...
Faith is to know that He will, He loves.....
After that it is not called faith, it is called the eternal unconditional love.
"Jesus loves you and I", it is not a slogan. It is the real main thing in believing Jesus Christ,
that He is love.
Just accept , no need to pay
主イエス様、
突然。。。彼を愛する感じがなくなった。もう、前のことを忘れてしまいました。では、まだあのことを祈るべきですか？突然この時....
I just don't know, in these days, I just ask myself should I keep on holding on for that? Actually, I really hate what I had had in those days now. I really hate that sick "dirt". If he is going to stick to the dirt, then I don't want to go back and I want to give up. Can I forgive? I am sure that you can forgive him as you did on me. However, the main point is, can I do the same thing as you do on me? Lord, if you say I should yet I can't please help me to overcome that part too cuz I just don't want to live with that throughout the years in my life.
Can I call this as a "give up" or returning the rights to you, surrender to you finally? I heard your message in Benny HInn about compassion. Yes, you are everything to me but I have never thought and really experienced that you are the whole thing~ you are the Love that I have been hearing for these years.
Is this a give up or is this a surrender? I know that I have to know myself, grow in you and manage what I have got. Then I have to give what I have got from you to the others. This is what I have got from the holy spirit these days. No matter what, I have to complete this part. Yet, what I have been praying for and holding on.... should I let it go?
If I let it go then I don't expect it comes again cuz.... If I decide and really make this decision then I cannot take it back from you. I know that. So...... Can I ask you once again, what is your will Jesus? Maybe you have told me yet I don't know. The "wish-list" that I have had crams into the prayer all the days that I have. It is another important decision. It is another important decision in my life. Yes, this decision is not something about giving up. It is not something that I make because I cannot see the fire or the clouds, it is also not a decision to be made because I lack faith.
This decision is something about my life. This decision should be made because of who you are and what you want, your will and what you have planned in my life even before my birth. Lord, it is not because all the miracles, the power, the songs, the teachings, the tears, the rewards, the practices in your kingdom or my future. It is something that what you want and who you are.
Lord, please, take my life with you. Don't lose your hands on me and on those who seek you with their hearts or their souls or their minds or their mouths, even as little as a spot of dust. Yes, I don't want to take the fruits and butter and the corn away without taking you away. How often I have taken the fruits, butter and corn away yet I went back to Egypt again. How often it was! I don't want to be like that before. I want to go to Bethel and go to Jerico and to the Jordon river and then to the promised land forever. Yes, I just took the food with me every time and left you at the gate of Egypt. Then I went back to Egypt for food again, at that time I found you again at the gate to save me. Yet, every time, I didn't bring you with me. Now, I want to take the food from you and take you with me on the road to Gilgal, Bethel, Jerico and the Jordon River. I don't want to go back to Egypt again and just walk around the mountain again and again.
Can I take you with me? If I can take you with me, I even don't have to go back but I can even go further to places that I have never known, that is the promised land that you have prepared for me.
I am ready now, thanks for the buffer period.
Yes, I am ready and waiting for you.
The main point is to accept He loves me. We don't have to pay for it just accept it.
主な点はその愛を受けることです。
Satan, you are not the one that who controls my life any more!
I am going to take back my life, yes! I can take back my life in Jesus Christ and you shut up!
I am going to take back my life fully! And I am going to take back my love in Christ from you!
You are the one who holds the sword sitting on the white horse. You are the anti-Christ with fake Gospel. Yours is not the truth!
I am a warrior, I am an ambassador. Only I can take him back. I am going to, very soon, and so soon that God is doing it right now I know in my spirit, take back my life and my family and my love and my future and my destiny from you.
Get lost!
In Jesus' name I say to you. Amen
I want to make a witness of myself today.
I am facing a test given by God, I failed again.
Crisis of faith, hope and love.
Crisis of worrying
Crisis of doubting God's ability
Crisis of losing faith
Crisis of receiving the lies from Satan
Crisis of believing there is no Satan
Crisis of ... not knowing Lord, my saviour, the son of the living God
Faith crisis.........................
Have mercy on me please, every minute it fills my blood.
In Jesus' name, Amen
I don't want to be a slave in this world, no bad habits but good habits only
because I feel so bad when I get back to be a slave.
No more wishing ONLY! It is not an excuse !
I wish to have good skin
I wish to wake up early and sleep early
I wish to have good GPA
I wish to pay all the debt
I wish to have money to enjoy with family and friends
I wish I can have a good job in the future
I wish to study Master in Japan next year
I wish to reach the promised land !!!
I wish He wil change him TOTALLY, totally
I wish to have the promised land
I wish I can have all the good characters in Christ
I wish I have inner and outer beauty
I wish to have good friends all day long
I wish to travel a lot
I wish to have nice meals every day
I wish I can master what I want to learn...
Jesus, My Lord, My Holy Spirit,
What is your will on this matter for me?
If it is not in you and you say that you will not bless mine, then it would be just like a hell that I am living in nowadays. IWhat I want is not like this, but just like a heaven on earth, my second hidding place in this world. I have found that... one day I have to ask you this ultimate question. If I have to ask you someday, then why don't I ask you today on 10/12,2005.
There were a lot of bad memories and I don't want to be slave of both the Satan and the Man again, ever again. I am a daughter of Christ now. But of course, there were certainly some good ones left. Give thanks to you.
Now, Lord, I ask you to show me your will, no matter what, lift me up and go through either one cuz either one will take my breath away. Lord, if Satan is doing something, punish him and take all back from him for us please. Let all the shame and humility put into the Lake of Fire and support me to press on.
Yes, I want Heaven, I don't want a hell in my house. For me and my house, we will serve the Lord. Lord, heis so selfish and .... whenever I remember the days of being slave, I just ...
Lord, take me out of H. I don't care if you take me only or with my family. I pray that you take my whole family out, out of H and out of Egy.
Today I have finished Business Japanese examination.
Then I went to UST and read the Bible
For the first 4 books, it already makes me .... fear?
Cuz I should have died long ago if there is no Jesus Christ, yet I don't know Jesus Christ (100 % in my spirit) How sad it is. I want to know 100 % in my spirit. Yet I can't pay the price of ....
No mournings
No breaking the laws
No breaking the Orders from the Holy Spirit
If you don't have faith, then you will be the next Moses
If you don't stand for God, then you will be the next Moses
You can ask You can tell God that you are not strong enough
Yet, no mourning....
Don't follow other "Gods"
Beware of choosing people in your life
Distinguish what is from the Lord and what is not (Baren)
No cursing