忘れられます。前のことは全部忘れられます。
すべての、主からいただいたものではなかったから。
でも、主よ、将来のことが忘れられません。
はい、すべての将来の栄光が忘れられません。
主よ、今日から、エリシャは信じます。
ううん、
信じて行きます。
主、愛しているよ。
うん、愛しているよ。
あなたは愛ですから、愛している。
またあなたとボットを乗りたいです。
主よ、お願いします。
皆どんなことを言うも大丈夫です。
怒らない、諦めません。
ただ、あなたの言葉を聴くだけです。
あなたの言葉を信じます。
私の主よ、唯一の主よ、すべても助けてあげる主よ、
お願いします。。。
顔のためではない、
国籍のためではない、
地方のためではない、
性格のためではない、
イーメジのためではない、
家のためではない、
家族のためではない、
ただ、一人でも大事ですから。
ただ、あなたできるから、
ただ、あなた you are willing to.... I know it and I believe.
最後、お願いします。
Preparation for the Ministry
12 steps for the clay = Calling
Pass the Test of Calling = Chosen
Know how to help the broken lives
Don't act like what other act like
Positive, Love, Encouragement,
Shoulders, Gatherings, Cards,
and then a final word from God and a little faithful prayer
The Time Test = change the attitude and reasons
The Word Test = Build faith, wisdom, characters and Humility
Oh how true it is Lord
Before I didn't want to preach
Now, the only thing that I want to do is to preach
Before, I wanted to preach because of my loved ones
Now, I want to preach because the one who loves me
Before, I wanted to preach because I love that place
Now, I want to preach because I know that is my place
Before, I wanted to preach because I thought I should
Now, I want to preach because of His will, which becomes mine
Yes, before, it was because of a man
Now it is totally because of God, the Heaven, the Kingdom.
Each of us carry a different vision
What we have to do is to look at God ONLY
and believe each other by the faith of God
Yes, listen, by the faith of God,
Not by our faith in flesh
Then pray for His will and move His hand
if you dare to and want to and be prepared to persist till death
Jesus, you know it now, this minute, 20:50,
that I do this not because I want to get the Glory
I just want the real truth to be revealed and let your Kingdom comes
Not only because our heavy burdens in sin,
but because of what you can and who you are
All the Glory is yours I can promise you.
Every One has his or her Cross
that's why the other don't know about your Cross
Don't blame them,
cuz when you blame
only the Satan will laugh and be joyful
Look upon God to be your strength and be your help
Look upon Him to be your Goal and Vision
Look upon Him to be the beginning and the end of your life
Again, I have got a revelations through my life.
I just chatted with my friend through MSN
I just wanted to share the great dream to her
I just wanted to share the greatest Holy Spirit to her
I just wanted to tell her that what the "Trinity" is
which I asked God before
I knew what it is but it just only in words and in mind
I know it in my spirit right now and I want to know it more
However, they judged me time after time
I asked God, if this is my wrong, if this is Benny's wrong
then tell me cuz I just want to follow and be close to you
I can understand how Joyce Meyer felt
I can understand how Lewellyn felt after the Holy Spirit
fell upon him, no one believed !!!
Lord, the only thing I pray is that...
If I have any wrong, tell me and make me move
go to church, you know how I want to go to church
Jesus, I don't care how they see me
The only one that I care is how you think about me
I am sorry for I do have weaknesses
Jesus, I love you, but I don't want to love you in my heart only
I don't want to love you by myself only
I want to share this heavenly joy with the saved and unsaved
They may not believe
Yes, preaching the Gospel is something like this
No one believe~~~ Be prepared, no one believes in the Gospel
Yet, through Jesus, Holy Spirit and God, it will be done
I truly want to do something great for the Kingdom of God in Japan
I can tell you explicitly, I truly do want to.
I truly want A to be saved not because of me but because of the SOUL!
I can tell you explicitly that I truly do
I can also tell you truly that, I just want to go back to Japan when He call me at any time.
Truly, I feel like Japan is my homeland because what God has done inside of me
我做了一個夢，感覺是極之惡毒．
它真的是極之惡毒，為要蒙騙，為要我們跑不起來．
我問神為何要這樣呢？
之後我見了一個畫面
我與耶穌坐在一條小船上，我只見到我的背面，
亦看不見耶穌，但我只見到我對面的是耶穌．
湖面是一片屬靈的安靜，是一份極之極之美好的感受．
好靜好靜．．．那一份平安是我一直渴求的平安．
與耶穌很接近，對是我一直所渴求的．
我們沒有對話，只感到耶穌與我有溝通，是真正的心與靈的溝通．
對呀，我一直要的就是這樣的關係！充滿我而不是Petitions
湖的四周有樹木，天是橙色的，很和暖．
之後我好像坐了耶穌的那邊，我只想捉住他的手臂，把頭放在他的肩膀上．
就是這樣，我第一次與耶穌相會．．．．．．
起床．．．己是下午
我便立刻禱告，我感到他的惡，極之可惡的惡．
但之後我問神，那是要放棄嗎？
我只想可以由一個不能行的我變成飛跑的我．
救贖並不是因為一個人變得邪惡，所以要有救贖．
救贖，全只是出於耶穌基督的愛，
出於聖靈的恩與榮光，
出於創造天地萬物的神的話，
而出口的話一定會成就．
就只是這樣．．．．．．
神呀，多謝你，我愛你呀．
請你完成我，好叫一切上都可從你的義．
神呀，給我一個天國的職份，
好叫我在死前的一秒可以今生無悔．
神呀，在地上，請領我到更高處．
神呀，什麼都好．．．．．．
可以每日都與你在湖上見面嗎？
不要讓我忘記這次的約會，因為是完全的安靜，
是完全的寧靜，湖面的水美而靜，是一塊鏡．
天是粉橙色的，好像一幅畫一樣．
後來我發現，原來是兩個夢，
是兩個連續的夢．．．．．．
第一個是可惡的，足以令我放棄為救贖禱告．
第二個是世上最美的，最好的夢，
足以滿足我一生所需．
後來我發現，什麼是天淵之別
原來與主一起與與惡者一起是有天淵之別
神、唯一の神へ、
就職活動はどう？直接に教えたいね。
勿論自分好きな仕事を取りたいが。。。
本当にしたいことは、ただ日本へ帰って、
教会に行って、仕事は。。。なんでもいいです。
ただ、債がなくって、親もよく幸せに生きて、
自分はいい生活にして欲しいです。
後は、日本のBHMで働きたいです。
実際ね、キスはただこれだけ欲しいですよ。
うん、でも、今また失敗中ね。。。
教会に行きたいです。
日本語を勉強したいです。
お金を貯めたい、生活と親のために。
本当に、ただこれを欲しいです。
どうですか。
しかし、あなたの志だけに従ってね。
お願いします。
主、キスは今後悔しているよ。
本当に間違いました。
許してください。
あなたの家に帰られて、あなたと共にいられて、
本当に幸せですよ。
ありがとう、主。
キスより
力がある、何で突然こんなに強くになるの？
主、わたくしは今この目で何にも見えない。
何にも～確かに。
しかし、中の信と火で全部見えるよ。
約束してくれでください。
真剣に
力を下さってください
そして、わたくしの分を終わらせてください。
あなたの教え、あなたの指示も。つまり、あなたの御霊です。
これは私の分ですから、私の栄光ですから。
しかし、この栄光はあなたのですよ。
わたしのすべてのはあなたにあげましたから。
真剣に約束してください、主。ずっと、永遠に私と共に。
では、真剣に約束してください。
あなたの分、あなたの分も終わってください。
はい。。。あなたが言った、「I will not do it as long as you touch it」
I can do it only if you leave it to me
はい、私たちは「LIFE PARTNERS」です！
あなたの分と私の分を合わせて、天国を作ろう！
Dear Jesus,
How are you these days? I know that you have been to Fiji. Have you back to the America now? Jesus, I really want to serve you. But I am a very poor servant in your eyes I know. They mock at me and they give up on me. Yet, I really didn't want not going to church. I liked going to church when I was in Japan, you know that. Jesus, do you judge me just like they do? Will you understand me? Can you give me a chance to serve you? I want to have a suitable church life as I did in Beppu. Please, I have to beg you every time.
Jesus, I do mean it. No matter what, don't leave me or abandon me after giving me such sacred burden in my heart for Japan. I pray that I can follow the Benny Hinn Ministries. I don't need any "name" if you don't want to give me. I just want to serve at BHM in Japan. Lord, send me please.
I have all the plans for preparations, yet I don't have the real power to enact the whole thing. Please purge my laziness, seriously. I, can I tell you...? will you listen? There is such a big dream inside me. This burden is so cool. I just love it. Jesus, the only thing that I want to do on earth now is to follow you and follow the BHM and go to church and go to Japan and work and live and preach the Gospel. I want to build your church and make Japan a Christian Japan. A Kingdom of God. I want to build it, build it! I can see it to be so great, so great. Yet, Lord, I am a bug only in your eyes. What am I in you Lord? This is another important quesiton that I have to ask before I die. Yes, what am I to you Lord? There are so many men and women outside sending the application forms to you. There are so many who are strong and faithful to you. I am just a nothing.
Jesus, I am only a nothing to you. I am only a person who can accomplish nothing in Christ. I don't go to church in Hong Kong. I just go to church whenever I live overseas only....
God, is it possible?
Not only for preaching
Not only for miracle crusade
Not only for worshipping in Tokyo
Not only for a few rallies in a year
It is for the whole nation
It is for all the souls
It is for the building of the Church
It is for Christians' lives
It is for the real Church in every house
It is for forever
Japan will not be a Christian nation for a while
But It will be a Christian nation forever
Not only Japan, this calling is for Japan only
God will use other people for other places, I believe.
I am saved already, I am, surely am. Cuz I know for sure that I can go to Heaven today.
I truly know that I can go to Heaven today
For me, I have to learn and grow and practise to be the servant of this Kingdom.
But this time, it is for people outside, for my family, for my bloodline, for my generations, for the past generation, for the future generation.... I am not the savior, I am just a servant.
Send me please, so that I can finished this life right though I was born to be wrong.
Show me and tell me that because of you, not only this tiny little life can be save and changed from what is left through the bloodline, but can win and win over and over again for You.
Make my life to be what is in you is mine, what is in mine is yours.
もし七月十五日に主と会う約束があったら、
今どうすればよろしいでしょうか？
その時、どうやって主の前に、主の褒めリがもらえるの？
ね～主の褒めリのために頑張ります。
ニ〇〇六年七月十五日に
どうして毎回も感動していますか？
どうして毎回も喜んでいますか？
どうして毎回も泣いていますか？
どうして毎回も笑っていますか？
どうしてまた、諦めませんか？
はい、その喜び、その喜び。
もし自分も喜んでないと、どうしてまた毎回も感動しているの？
もし今自分は途中にいるのはよく知っていると、どうして諦めたいの？
将来の喜びを見てください。御霊の目で見てください。
将来の喜びが見えるから、今の辛さもう関係ないです。
２００６年７月１５日へ。
I really wanted to give up yesterday as I heard what my relatives shared.
But when I noticed that there is a Japanese version of BHM homepage,
I just want to prepare myself and get there....
With no regret in my life.