My vision has been changed
Before, I could see God is a Judge
Now, I can see He is love
Before, I could see God is able
Now I can see He is willing
Before, I saw him a miserable God
Now I can see He is sitting on the throne
Before, I thought I should be miserable too
But now, I know that I am a daughter of Christ and now I live in the Kingdom of God.
But I am not fully delivered yet, so I pray Jesus, draw me near to you and be close with you.
I just want to abide with you and be that "nothing", let you be everything in my life.
My Glory is Your Glory, My Kingdom is Your Kingdom.
I have been tasting the weight of the Cross and my sin, it is so heavy that choked me up.
The Cross, it doesn't mean the heaviness. It means the willingness of carrying.
It means the blood, the degree that He loves us.
The degree of willingness to love us even if the blood had to be shed in this way.
The weight for myself is already very heavy.
The weight for myself and my loved ones together is tremendous that
I even asked God that I wanted to go back to Heaven and hug God immediately,
yes, in times of undergoing the pit, I yelled from the pit of my heart to God.
I asked God, take me or deliver me out of this and get me to the promised land.
Today, I am still here, God You have to keep your promise then because you didn't take me.
Your Love is...
knowing our faults, knowing our lies, knowing our iniquities,
you are watching, you are listening and you just know that we are still being wrong
but you are still waiting 「ずっと待っていた、ずっとまっていた」井戸の傍で。
あなたを待っていた、ずっと待っていた、その井戸の傍で。
「あなたと共にいる。あなたを見放すことも、見捨てることもない。」 ヨシュア記 1章 5節
主、何も心配せずに、何も考えずに、あなたのところへ行きます。
ただ、あなたのところへ行きます。
ほかの事は。。。あなたの手に入れて、お願いしますね。
信じます。信じます。いつか、天国で会いましょ。
十字架の重さ、最後分かってきた。ありがとうございます。