13th of April 2021.
Here I am writing a blogpost for the first time in a while. As I listen to the playlist that I have created on spotify, I have been pondering on something for a few days now. It's not that much of a big deal actually. 😅 Without further ado, I'll start talking about it now.
It started last week when my magazine arrived from Japan. The last time I bought a magazine from Japan was in 2018 and since then, I only buy calendars and oh well I have uchiwas that's still at my friend's place in Malaysia. Setting those aside, I got hyped when the magazine finally arrived.
First, I looked at the pictures one by one. After I finished looking at the pictures, I started watching the DVD that was attached at the magazine. I just kept on looking at the pictures one by one until I decided to started reading the contents slowly.
What caught my attention as I read the contents was a certain guy. I first saw him on twitter last year when it was announced that he will participate for the new album. And then the youtube video of them introducing themselves as it will be their first time participating in the album and also for the upcoming live performance.
Back then, I searched his name on google and when I saw that he is casted in an ongoing drama, I took that chance to watch him for the first time. I found him cute on that drama or more like the drama's theme is cute in the first place! So, I went back and looked once again for what more dramas or movies to watched with him as part of the cast and I stumbled upon a tokusatsu series. Back then, I was still watching another tokusatsu series (kamen rider) so I added the series on my to watch list. It will be my first time watching a super sentai series so I'm quite excited! I also started reading a few web articles about him (I haven't read everything yet!).
Fast forward to last week and like I've already mentioned, I also started reading the magazine slowly.
I found his answer for the question "what kind of existence fans are?" heartwarming for some reason. Reading more and I found him really interesting, I like how his answers/stories reflect his heart.
EXTRA STORY
9th of April.
My friend asked me "what if he cry during this year's live?" and I responded "I don't know about him but let's see. 😏😏". A few hours later, I sent her a message again to which I wrote that "first day had ended, two more days and will he cry?", "but if he cries... I want to pat his head."
10th of April.
me: "wake me up when he cries tomorrow"
her: "hahaha no he wont haha unless aksndj"
me: "it's your idea to begin with!! now, I can't help but think if he will cry. though I'm sure he won't but still!! YOU ARE RESPONSIBLE FOR THIS!!"
her: "STOP THINKING ABOUT IT AKSNDJJD I'm laughing so hard I cannot"
11th of April.
She told me that "HE DID CRIED AKSNSJSJJSJKS"
And also, my acquaintance on twitter sent me photos of him crying.
That sums up the story about me and my friend talking about him. It became long-winded, sorry.
What I'm actually pondering upon is not about him crying on this year's live performance BUT if he will be promoted. His existence is slowly growing inside me.
In the recent web interview he had, he just became as honest as what he can be again. I just thought, if he is just as honest as this, I want to cherish his existence and protect him at all cost.
And yes, he got promoted after I read the aforementioned interview.
From here on, I will look at him from afar (well, literally since I'm an overseas fan). I want to be part of those people whom he calls as "fans" and I want my existence to be the "support of the mind" that he mentioned. But there are things that international fans like I am can and cannot do.
On this point on, I am your fan and I will support you in the best way that I can. Just keep on doing your best.
P.S.: I did not like him because of his face value. He is handsome, yes, but I liked him because of the way he answered his interviews. I like how his answers reflect his heart and that's how his existence grew slowly inside me.
