This blogpost is all about my bottled up feelings that I have since 2019. I have avoided talking about it all this time because apart from not knowing what to say, I was also dumbfounded.
2021, two years had passed since that happened. To be honest, it took me a year to be able to accept everything that has happened.
There's no turning back right now.
Yesterday, my man and the very reason why I am here (at j*hnny's fand*m) held an insta live.
I was happy to see my man for the first time since he left j*hnny's // Osaka.
And because he is the reason why I am in that fandom, when he left, I also left too.
I slowly went on a hiatus as I see lots of people do the same.
I disconnected with my friends, I didn't want to talk to anyone.
I was depressed or rather I got depressed again.
But seeing him all smiles yesterday, I was relieved.
He even said "my friends are doing their best, I'm doing my best too".
I have accepted everything that had happened but there's no turning back for me.
I still support each and everyone wholeheartedly but sorry, I can't be all out just like before.
The past journey might have ended for me but meeting you, meeting them will always and forever be my treasure.
I love you.
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