言葉にできない。by 小田和正

11.26 Friday.

TGIF!
I didn't go anywhere again.
This is my weakness that I cannot go outside when I'm not feeling good.

I called 3 or 4 houses to get appointments of job interviews.
Some didn't even get the phone from me, and some were their moms.
I have learned that Friday nights are not the best time to reach them. I should have noticed such a simple thing earlier. Anyways, Saturday nights are the right time to make phone calls to them.


Just a few minutes ago, I happened to look at Starbucks's web site which was all red colored.
As a parter, I looked at every single contents of it, and I realized how much I should be proud of
working for Starbucks. It is a great company, actually.


I will be working tomorrow with a new passion for Starbucks, partners and our customers.
Good night.

Taking Chances by Celine Dion

11.25 Tuesday,

I didn't go to school today because I tend to be a homebody afternoon.
I've gotta do something with it.


Time fly so fast like a wind.

I met this girl to study for a Buddhist test together and we've known each other since junior high school. Isn't it amazing? It doesn't mean that we've grown in a small society because I went to Canada and she is such a well known tea kwon do player now! We do our own stuff but the relationship between us has NOT destroyed at all.

By the way, music has been away from my life. I miss it so much. Why don't I get closer to it?
These job hunting activities are driving me nuts, actually, I love knowing someone new and hearing some OB's and OG's talking. However, something is missing. I know that it is music. There are so many chances around me to be successful as a singer, such as auditions, lives and concerts.


Why don't I get started?

The answer is just...


'I do not know'.



Maybe I've been feeling in a hurry according as other students are doing job hunting hard.


What is your priority?
Money?
Brand?
Colleagues?
Worth?
Contribution to the world?


Mine must be...the last one. I want to do something for the world. A job which I can feel connected to the world directly and being a help for somebody. It will be great if I could do that kind of job.

I've been thinking of what I can do to the world as an international person, not as a Japanese.
It doesn't matter if I can speak a lot of languages. The must essence is the passion as I desire to do something to the world, or I have to do something for someone.


Saying such a thing is too easy but moving on to a real action is too difficult. The first little step is like a mile. Life is always deciding by myself. Listen to your heart but be your best self.

You Learn by Alanis Morissette

11.25 Tuesday,

There are too many informations around me. I do not know which one to pick up.

First, I wanna do my job globally.
So, I have been looking at general trading companies such as Itotsu, Sumitomo, Marubeni.


However, I went to this forum called Race Forum 2012 yesterday and I heard Honda's presentation. I was shocked in a good way. The guy talking looked around 40's and he was talking about his job being so excited. I was realized that there are many jobs using English if it is not in a general trading company.

If I started looking at those hidden trading companies, then I totally will be in a job hunting maze! There are too many info that I could know if I wanted to but I know I have to get started.


By the way, I have booked a galaxy from Docomo, but it will be difficult to get one before the end of this year. It has been making me mad because I cannot book a seminar with my cell phone. All the appointment stuff is able to access from PC only. So, an i-Phone could do it, but my old cell phone cannot. I wish I could get a galaxy as soon as possible. Especially, there is new one coming up from Docomo, so some people who have booked Galaxy should go to the new one. Then my turn to get a Galaxy will be earlier then I was told.


OKay, I have to go to school. It has been for a while since I went there last time.

First Love

11.22 Mon.

Today is my dad's 61st birthday! Happy Birthday Dad!!
I brought a pedometer and an electric toothbrush. I believe he is gonna love them.


I went to Dentsu. today for an older girl job interview which was fun. I have not met her before but we both know the same girl, so it was not awkward at all.

The work she does is so much harder than I have thought. She has slept for 3 to 4 hours per day these days, so she looked so sleepy at the time. I would not be able to manage that job easily.

I saw a lot of workers coming out from the gate and most of them were so fashionable. I was kind of shocked because I have believed that dentsu is a bunch of smart people who do not care about what they wear. I was wrong.

Anyways, dad is almost there. I should be getting ready to sing happy birthday song for him.

Good night! Sweet dreams!

When The Lights Go Down by Faith Hill

11.20 Sat.

I love this song.
I wish I could sing it as well as Faith Hill does. She is such an amazing singer.

I called 4 OGs tonight but none of them was there because it is a Saturday night. Everyone has something lated to their jobs.

Good night!

Love Is Over

11.19 Fri

TGIF!! but I did not do anything special today.

Well, I wanted to make a call to an OG who graduated from the same faculty I am in. However, the answering machine did not let me leave a message. It just kept ringing for a while. Im gonna try again tomorrow.

It made me so nervous when I try to make a call. I have never met her before, right? The way how to speak to elder people is kind of difficult because I do not use it that often. Of course I use it when I am working at Starbucks but there are curtain sentences I use all the time. So, there is a pattern. On a phone call, I cannot see the mouth, so I have to get my mind working at full speed to figure out what the person is actually saying, very accurately.


My job hunting is just started, so there is no 'too late things'.


However, this guy I met yesterday, who works for the HR of our university, made me mad.
He and I were chatting while waiting for a person from the company named Dentsu. Then, he asked me whether or not I applied for his class for job interview. So, I said 'no'. There are curtain reasons why I did not write my name on the list. I thought it would be a bad influence upon my job hunting activities because everyone will be corrected by the guy so everyone would be alike each other. Of course, I think it is so important to meet OGs and OBs as much as possible to feel them, talk to them, and correct my ES with them. So, I chose not to take the class intentionally. I wont regret about it.


I will believe myself forever no matter what anyone says.
I will not stop being myself no matter what anyone says.

Because That Is The Best Way To Encounter My Future Job.



Good night and sweet dreams...

Whole Lotta Love by Led Zeppelin

11.12 Tuesday,

Today, I went to Rox in Asakusa because I needed to buy B4 size papers to entry Fuji TV.
I met a guy who looked like around 30-40's, and he were trying to catch people to introduce his
company. It is an English school for Japanese named L-lan or something.

He was such a stranger, so I wanted to ignore him at first but he was so annoying. I decided to listen to him. He was like, HI~~~! HOW ARE YOU?? I was like, yeah, Im fine, what are you doing?..


Actually, it was sweet. I told him that I used to live in Canada and went to India etc.
He kept saying that I should be more proud of myself and it is gonna be alright.

Thank you to the guy.

OKay, byebye!

笑ってよby指田ふみやさん

11,6 Sat.

Today is my best friend's 22nd birthday! Happy B-day Yuno!!
We haven't talked for a while but I know she is doing okay because there is no phone calls, emails, anything like that. It is good to know that no sign means the life is going well.


I worked for 8 to 9 hours today.
There are many kinds of teaching or coaching OJTs. Some of coaches are strict. Some including me are nice most of the time but be harsh when it is needed. when people get higher rank at work, they start to show their original characters little by little. It is so wired when I notice somebody's dark side accidentally, especially the person who has been nice. I try to be calm all the time, no upset and no natural high. So, maybe there is no one who says I'm mean or difficult or something like that. I should be proud of it, right? This ability will help me out when I get into the real world.

Also, I was realized that I am good at little chatting when I am super sleepy. I don't know why but it is always little bit awkward when I talk to somebody. It is hard to explain but maybe Im shy or not that open-minded person at work and in front of people who I know sort of them. The real me is very friendly, funny, ironic, calm, talker, sometimes harsh, when I am with my close friends. It could be very stressful for me to control different 'me's.



Oh! I should talk a little big about the title, shouldn't I?
This guy won the Voice Power Audition held by Warner Music Entertainment. I love his voice from the very first time I heard his song. HOWEVER!! Meanwhile, I thought I could sing better than him! I have never tried an audition in Japan, so I do not know how far I could go as a singer. Maybe I should try one even though job hunting is getting busier then ever because NO MUSIC, NO LIFE! That's a rule of the world.

good night!

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Through the Rain by Mariah Carey

11.4 Wed,

I couldn't go to school today coz I was just dying. I worked until the store closed last night and I realized I am not the type of a girl who can fall in asleep easily. I have a sleeping problem!

Man, I have to write a web test of P&G tomorrow. It will be okay I guess.

Good night, sweet dreams...

Don't Lie by Black Eyed Peas

11.3 Wednesday,

Sometimes it is so difficult to make a good relationship with someone who is older than you and works in a small room or space with you. I am just a 22 years old girl and there are some partners who are around 30's to 40's doing the same things as I do. Customers cannot tell the differences between me and them, so it is needed to operate as same as other partners do. I try. Those young partners try, too. However, in our side, young partners including me are always working being nervous because the eyes of customers and elder partners are always looking at us.


Today, 3 people came to our store. They were talking about the new espresso machine called the Mastraners ( I don't even know how to spell it). So, I said 'Yes, these are mostly okay but sometimes they could be a big trouble'. We talked and I found that they were the opening members of our store! How amazing is that?! People working for Starbucks and people used to work for Starbucks are nice for sure. I love the feeling like being in a Starbucks family.

I wish I could go abroad as an exchange partner of Starbucks. There is no such a program but there should be something like that! Don't you think so? Exchanging our partners internationally, so everyone could learn the languages and how other countries do the same job. I should make a proposal to do that.


I have my period which makes my mind somewhere else. It is true that women cannot think as they do normally when they have their periods.



Tomorrow is just another day. You did a good job and I did a good job today.

Good night and sweet, sweet dreams....