11.1 Mon.
Yes. November now. Time flies so fast isn't it?
I did't go to a seminar held by UFJ today because I was so feeling alone all day long. When I am in that mood, no one actually can help me out. Plus, my dad has been so annoying since he retired this Spring, so he is a trouble, a big one to me.
Even though, I talked to Mariko who survived the life in Canada with me. She had arrived there earlier than me, so she told me everything about the school and how to enjoy being in Kamloops.
I really like her as a person. She is funny, helpful, and she reminds me of my sister. I was totally upset today but during we were talking on the phone it was just like an amazing, precious time for me. I could feel my heart getting warmer. I really am grateful to have such a friend. She will be my friend forever.
Anyways, I have a goal for my relationship with my dad. That is to be nice to him all the time.
He is now 60 years old. He is old enough to have a grandchild, right? But me, I still hate him as a high-school kid does. I know it is so ridiculous. I don't know. There is no way to talk to him naturally anymore. Maybe the trigger was when he called me as YOU, お前 in Japanese, which he had never done to me before. There are some words to describe 'you' in Japanese, the Omae is a violent word for me. He used it to me for the first time and it was only 2 weeks ago.
I was so shocked.
It is nothing special for some family. 'Omae' is used between two people who are in a rough relationship. So it could sound rude sometimes but it could be a good word to shorten the distance between you and someone else you like. It is a difficult word.
So, I'm looking for something that I can forgive my dad for calling me 'you' in a rude mood.
I'm not ready to forgive him yet but I also know he is not young anymore, so there is another me saying as I should be an adult. He could die anytime soon, right? It would be too late to thank him as a good father when he died by a car accident or something.
The name of a song in the title is one of my best favorite song.
I like it as a sentence and the band is fucking amazing! Steve Perry is the best! FOREVER!
Unfortunately, I was not born in that era, so I don't know much about them.
Here is my story.
When I was in Canada, we were happened to go to a band trip with school bands people. The departure was to Ohaio in the U.S. A jazz festival was going to be held there and a lot of famous musicians were heading for the stadium. I was really excited. Those amazing people were amazing obviously but there is something else I remember so well.
There is a competition ? or just a concert held by only high-school students. There were the same age with us but they were the side of singing and we were the side of listening to. It was kind of mortifying. I was like,,'I can sing too! Let me go up there! Let me sing!'. How childish,eh?
Soon, I was realized that I was not that good at singing,,,,,compared with that Chinese little girl singing 'Don't Stop Believing' by Journey in front of like 1000 or more people in that place! Everyone was standing, clapping their hands like forever? The standing ovation has been the most perfect one in my entire life and it will be forever. The ranking will not gonna change in me.
SO! What I really wanna say is that the feeling I was feeling at the moment has to be remembered in myself and I should keep this song as my life encouraging song to keep up for my future. Every time I sing it or remember being there feeling my soul touched by her voice makes me myself back to then and eagerness wells up in me so quickly. Isn't it amazing? I just go sing this song when I wanna be challenge something!
Sorry, I have more I wanna tell you about Journey, and you can tell how much I love them from this long diary I have been writing.
BUT!
It's time to go to bed.
Tomorrow is just another day. Good night. Sweet dreams.
Yes. November now. Time flies so fast isn't it?
I did't go to a seminar held by UFJ today because I was so feeling alone all day long. When I am in that mood, no one actually can help me out. Plus, my dad has been so annoying since he retired this Spring, so he is a trouble, a big one to me.
Even though, I talked to Mariko who survived the life in Canada with me. She had arrived there earlier than me, so she told me everything about the school and how to enjoy being in Kamloops.
I really like her as a person. She is funny, helpful, and she reminds me of my sister. I was totally upset today but during we were talking on the phone it was just like an amazing, precious time for me. I could feel my heart getting warmer. I really am grateful to have such a friend. She will be my friend forever.
Anyways, I have a goal for my relationship with my dad. That is to be nice to him all the time.
He is now 60 years old. He is old enough to have a grandchild, right? But me, I still hate him as a high-school kid does. I know it is so ridiculous. I don't know. There is no way to talk to him naturally anymore. Maybe the trigger was when he called me as YOU, お前 in Japanese, which he had never done to me before. There are some words to describe 'you' in Japanese, the Omae is a violent word for me. He used it to me for the first time and it was only 2 weeks ago.
I was so shocked.
It is nothing special for some family. 'Omae' is used between two people who are in a rough relationship. So it could sound rude sometimes but it could be a good word to shorten the distance between you and someone else you like. It is a difficult word.
So, I'm looking for something that I can forgive my dad for calling me 'you' in a rude mood.
I'm not ready to forgive him yet but I also know he is not young anymore, so there is another me saying as I should be an adult. He could die anytime soon, right? It would be too late to thank him as a good father when he died by a car accident or something.
The name of a song in the title is one of my best favorite song.
I like it as a sentence and the band is fucking amazing! Steve Perry is the best! FOREVER!
Unfortunately, I was not born in that era, so I don't know much about them.
Here is my story.
When I was in Canada, we were happened to go to a band trip with school bands people. The departure was to Ohaio in the U.S. A jazz festival was going to be held there and a lot of famous musicians were heading for the stadium. I was really excited. Those amazing people were amazing obviously but there is something else I remember so well.
There is a competition ? or just a concert held by only high-school students. There were the same age with us but they were the side of singing and we were the side of listening to. It was kind of mortifying. I was like,,'I can sing too! Let me go up there! Let me sing!'. How childish,eh?
Soon, I was realized that I was not that good at singing,,,,,compared with that Chinese little girl singing 'Don't Stop Believing' by Journey in front of like 1000 or more people in that place! Everyone was standing, clapping their hands like forever? The standing ovation has been the most perfect one in my entire life and it will be forever. The ranking will not gonna change in me.
SO! What I really wanna say is that the feeling I was feeling at the moment has to be remembered in myself and I should keep this song as my life encouraging song to keep up for my future. Every time I sing it or remember being there feeling my soul touched by her voice makes me myself back to then and eagerness wells up in me so quickly. Isn't it amazing? I just go sing this song when I wanna be challenge something!
Sorry, I have more I wanna tell you about Journey, and you can tell how much I love them from this long diary I have been writing.
BUT!
It's time to go to bed.
Tomorrow is just another day. Good night. Sweet dreams.