140131

fuck work, man.

ever since i started there, it's been nonstop people barking orders at me.

im sick of it. i have to resign, it's so irritating. i hate the hours, i hate the work, i hate the people. it's not fun and not worth the money.

i cant be upset about it but i am. i just HATE being a subordinate. i wanna be a boss or be my own boss. i don't take shit from people and i don't want to listen to them. just give me my freedom and my own choices. damn

130218

i'm annoyed as fuck.

first i accidentally deleted this post originally because i can't fucking read japanese (which i should really take the time out to do someday)

and all this pledging/greek life assery is getting on my nerves b/c it's in my face. ALL THE DAMN TIME. i don't give two fucks who your littles or bigs are. please get out of my facebook newsfeed, my twitter feed, and my presence which you are so rudely consuming. the next time i hear anything about pledging, paddles, or getting fucking cheetah-print letters on your ugly cheap ass tote bag, i'm gonna punch a bitch in her shit

ALSO COULD IT BE ANY COLDER OUTSIDE W T F i'm moving to cali. tired of this winter BS

121014

it's been a while since i've made an update here.

mostly everything is going well. i am happily committed to a relationship, school isn't too stressful (but it is midterm week) and i am generally pretty happy

i've been thinking recently though about stuff i do that i want to quit - such as drinking alcohol. now dont get me wrong. i dont really drink a lot to begin with, but i just really dont see the point in it anymore. i usually have to pay 5 dollars for a beer and i hate the taste of it anyway

plus my medicine advises not to drink with it. so i am thinking about permanently giving up drinking. it really isnt important to me anymore so why even waste money on it. anyway thats my thought of the day

120911

It's really hard to not be discouraged once school starts.

Today I almost started crying, because I had the same thought I've been having for months and my brain decided to remind me of it today. I don't know what I want to do with my life. I double major in Journalism and Chinese, but what if I want to do something different than that? Am I screwed for for life? Do I have any chance of finding a job?

I know journalism isn't what I want to do. If I could, I'd switch my major. But I also want to stick with my original plan and finish the job. I've already come this far, and I can't give up on it now.

I only wish that I could see where this is all taking me. I want to know what my purpose is, or if I have multiple purposes.

120826

So much has happened in just a few short weeks.
I suddenly feel less and less depressed - but that's because I've started taking depression pills. Ever since I started using the pills, I feel like all these good things started happening.

However, my dating life is still stagnant. I don't know why, but I reject all the guys who ask me out. Probably because I am still waiting for that one person...

But a part of me wants to accept them just to give them a chance.

I am confused. Should I take my time with relationships or just go for it?