warning: this is a pessimistic and personal journal entry, will delete later. mom you can stop reading now :|
the thought that relocating my physical location would change myself was naive.
must change myself to get out of where i am to where i want to be.
i don't know what i'm doing or where im going, sometimes just living day by day drives me forward, but sometimes i don't know what i'm doing and those days are back
with
a
vengeance
and i just want to stay in bed and not do anything except sleep and ignore my problems
and also ignore the fact that future me in a couple of days will hate myself for it
i was hoping this bipolar nature of mine of being super motivated and content to being super avoidant and depressing would stop
today marks the 2nd month of studying abroad, and i regret to say, despite the new amazing experiences i have had here, i have not changed much.
will fill in about my athens and edinburgh trips soon, as soon as i get a grip on my life